SHER'S SHEER THOUGHTS

Of Anniversary and Birthday

2012-02-03T17:30:00.000+08:00

It’s that time of the month again. My wedding anniversary has passed and my birthday is looming. Somehow I find myself updating my blog without fail in February. I guess it is my favourite month.

I celebrated my 5th Wedding Anniversary yesterday. Hubby and I both took leave and we had lunch at Las Vacas, Mont Kiara. Hubby and I always celebrate our anniversaries in moderation. No dining at fancy schmancy place and no super duper expensive gifts being exchanged. This year we are spending our 5th year anniversary in Krabi sometime in March. I am so looking forward to the trip, just the both of us without the nieces and nephew.

I can’t believe I’ve been married for 5 years already. Felt like it was only yesterday that we went for fitting at laser mouth Man Kajang’s place. I can still remember I was trying to lose weight as much as possible to fit into my gorgeous purple wedding dress. I don’t care if people say I’m perasan. I thought I made a pretty good looking bride. LOL!

Hubby and I had gone through so much over the past year. My first pregnancy and miscarriage took a toll on us. 2011 was a very challenging year. Everytime after solat tak penah lekang from my mouth doa for us to be blessed with a child. I’m getting older and the older you get the risks is higher. Allah knows best and this is all dugaan from Him.

I’ve been reading blogs of some of my single and married friends and both single and married people encounters different challenges. It all boils down to commitment I suppose. Single people find it hard to take that step to commitmentville because they’re so use to taking care of themselves and not putting their trust in someone else’s hands whilst married people sometimes find it hard to stay committed to their spouse, the feeling of being taking for granted by their spouse leads them to the arms of a third party. I pray that will never happen to our marriage.

I don’t know what the future holds for me. Whether I’ll spend the rest of my life with my husband, whether I will ever get pregnant and have kids of my own or whether we will adopt one someday. All I know is I’m living in the moment now, I am having fun with my husband, still discovering each other’s eccentricities and loving each other dearly.

Happy 5th Anniversary Yang…may there be many more to come.

I Pray For You..Yes I Do

2011-10-25T09:58:00.003+08:00

I came across this song and it made me laugh. Especially the chorus part which I've bold in red...can check out the video on youtube below:-

http://youtu.be/atBg9zLI2bA

I PRAY FOR YOU by JARON AND THE LONG ROAD TO LOVE

I havent been to church since I don’t remember when

Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again

So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do

He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you

Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn

Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls

I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls

I pray all your dreams never come true

Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church

‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words

Yeah I’m goin’to take the high road

And do what the preacher told me to do

You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110

I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls

I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls

I pray all your dreams never come true

Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car, wherever you are honey, I pray for you.

Undilah..jangan tido..

2011-09-22T14:59:00.003+08:00

Love the video.

Forgiveness

2011-08-23T16:03:00.002+08:00

FORGIVENESS.

Came across this in the Islamic Thinking (click) blog. So true especially the part below:-

How can we move up the ladder of spiritual development when we hold bitterness and anger towards another person? While we may have been in the right, is it worth sacrificing our energy on a grudge instead of on growth?

Is there not something strange about asking for Allah’s forgiveness of our sins while withholding our forgiveness from someone who has hurt us?

Ramadhan is a holy month. It's the only month where your good deeds are multiplied by thousands, even millions if you're one of the lucky ones.

Ya Allah, terima lah amalanku and makbulkan lah semua doa-doaku. Hanya Kau yang Maha Mengetahui segala yang di langit dan di bumi.

Allahumma yassir wala tu'assir. Rabbi tammim bilkhoir. Birahmatikaya Arhamarrohimin.

Ya Allah, please make things easier for me and don't make them difficult.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir Batin.

Sayang

2011-08-17T09:58:00.000+08:00

I will be spending Hari Raya in Kuching this year. I will miss this cutiepie the most. It's gonna be a loooooong raya. Sigh.

Wordless Wednesday

2011-06-15T15:05:00.000+08:00

Redang Island - August 2010

Not Daddy's Little Girl...

2011-06-14T16:01:00.001+08:00

When I was small, I didn’t have the best relationship with my dad. He was a high ranking police officer and was seldom at home. I was so much closer to my mom, so I was never daddy’s little girl and can never understand the concept of being pampered by a dad. In fact I don’t remember liking my dad until I grew up and graduated from university.

I remembered we moved to Tapah when he was appointed as the DO sometime in late 70s. The house that we moved into was an old bungalow and behind it were rubber trees. I swear the house was haunted because we often hear knockings at the door and when we opened the door no one was outside. We also often hear the water taps being turned on. One of the maids told my mom that she saw a black hairy thing under the bed.

Anyway, I was 5 years old when we moved into the bungalow. I remembered that I was a very careless child. I would put my water bottle containing milo in my schoolbag and the milo would somehow spill and wet all my books. In one year, my parents went through I think 4-5 sets of books. When my dad asked me to take something out of the car, I would often lock the car and accidentally leave the car keys in the car. So I was often punished by my dad for being so careless. It was not the normal “ketuk ketampi” or “no tv for a week” kinda punishments. My punishments include standing in the hot sun without any slippers or shoes on for a few hours till I felt dizzy and both feet scorched by the hot tar road, sometimes the clothes hanger would land on my hands and sometimes he would make me stand at one corner in the house for few hours and not talk to anyone.

Because of all these punishments, I hated my dad when I was growing up. He’s not the kind of person who would come and pacify you after the punishment and actually tell you that he’s doing all that because he loves you and is teaching you a lesson. My dad was a hard man. I guess being a police officer he has to be very tough and not show any compassion. My siblings and I turn to my mom for everything. We relied on Mama for everything, be it money or love.

After my dad retired from the force, he spent more time at home, going to the mosque and praying. He is still fierce sometimes and expects people to follow what he says without question (he sometimes treat his kids like his subordinates. Giving orders instead of asking for help) but over the years he mellowed down and after getting grandchildren he learned to be gentler. I’m not saying he totally changed for the better but I can see the effort made.

My relationship with my dad is complicated. I respect him as a father even though I disagree with some of the things he does. I do love him but not in a loving sort of way. It is more like an obligation as a daughter kind of way. We’ve never celebrated Father’s Day. We’ve never given him a card on his birthday. What we siblings would do after all of us have started working is to take him out to dinner/lunch on his birthday or buy him a gift or give him money. I know he appreciates the effort and always thanked us for celebrating his birthday.

Sometimes I envy people who are close to their fathers, especially some girlfriends of mine who totally worship their dads. I don’t think I will ever have that kind of relationship with my father. I will always pray for him. I will always respect him. I will always do anything I can to make him happy. That’s my duty as a daughter as far as it goes.

This weekend is Father’s Day. I suspect my siblings and I would go about our daily lives and will not even remember the day. And I suspect my dad won’t even care or expect us to shower him with gifts. To him there is no need to celebrate Father’s Day to show how much you love your father. These days he’s content with us just buying him food or stocking up the fridge with chocolates and ice cream. It’s easy to please my dad these days, to which I am so thankful. So please don't judge me. Not all of us have perfect families. I love my dad, in my own way and will never wish him harm. I've made peace with my feelings for him. Allah knows best.

In Sickness and In Health

2011-06-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was the worst weekend ever. Was down with flu, fever and cough. My throat was swollen, which is pretty weird because I had my tonsils removed last year and didnt expect the throat to be swollen like that. My nieces and nephew has their flu and fever a few weeks back and I thought I could escape the bug but apparently not. I'm still having this dreaded flu but the throat is okay and I'm feeling a whole lot better.

Suddenly last night Sayang came down with a fever and I had to give her the fever meds. Poor darling. Thank god she didnt wake up so often. She just woke up once for feeding and then went back to sleep peacefully.

I was surprised with the number of pregnancy news this month. A colleague just told me she's 3 months pregnant, with twins!!! And there are no history of twins in her or her husb's family. Kuasa Allah...I'm so happy for her and it gives me hope that if she can get twins then maybe I can too..hehehehe...

My sister in law is also pregnant. No, not Hareez's mom but my other SIL in Kedah. This would be her 4th one, insyaAllah..

My nephew Laiq is already 6 months and looking very healthy and adorable! My buah hati Sayang is already 9 months and is so cheeky and her new hobby is sticking out her tongue!

Laiq

Sayang

Sayang & Laiq (L-R)

Hubby and I are still trying to get pregnant. One day at a time :)

Wordless Wednesday

2011-06-01T13:54:00.003+08:00

The Next Step

2011-03-31T16:45:00.000+08:00

The hard part is over. Now, comes the harder part.

MOVING ON.

I have no clue how to do that. Health wise, I’ve been diligent in going for regular check-ups for my diabetes. My sugar level control is getting much better. I’ve not been snacking like how I used to.

What I want to know is…when is the right time to try again? Even thinking about “getting intimate” with my husband gives me a headache. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not turned off by sex. I’ve just been feeling irritable and lazy. Yes, that’s the word.

LAZY.

It’s hard to be optimistic sometimes. Sometimes I find it hard to confide with thehubby because somehow my point doesn’t get across and we end up fighting. He takes what I say personally even though I told him it has nothing to do with him and that I was just telling him how I feel. Sometimes I think it’s better to just keep my thoughts and feelings to myself, rather than risk a huge fight when I express them.

After the D&C, I had backaches and terrible stomach cramps. When I went to see the doctor, he asked me how I was feeling about the miscarriage and whether I had trouble sleeping. He suggested that I talk to a professional because sometimes the physical pain I was feeling is a manifestation of an intense emotional pain. Talk to a shrink??? Goodness. I don’t think it’s necessary. I think I’m handling all this quite well. Yes, I do break down sometimes but that’s natural, right? But I know myself. I’m a strong person inside and out and I believe I will be able to recover from the loss gradually.

I’m taking care of my niece at the moment. She’s 6 months old and I love and adore her to bits. She sleeps with me and I’ve been taking care of her since she was 2 months old. I think she’s my escapism. When I look at her, all my problems disappear for a while and I feel so much better. I don’t have to deal with my sadness and that loss, empty feeling inside. It’s bad I know but I can’t help it. This is how I deal.

I just need to figure out how this “moving on” bit works. Pray for me.

An Open Letter To Michael Buble

2011-03-15T11:35:00.001+08:00

Dear Mr. Buble,

I was at your concert on Sunday the 13th March 2011 in KL. I had the best time of my life. You are by far the best entertainer I’ve ever seen. I thoroughly enjoyed your “party” and believe me if you ever come back to KL I will surely get the most expensive ticket because you are so worth every ringgit!

My husband is a big fan of yours. I think I started listening to your music because of him. He told me that when he was in Kuching some years ago he entered a singing competition organised by his company and he sang and danced to “Sway”. He said he listened to your rendition of Sway and loved it. He actually got 2nd place. He showed me the video of him singing and dancing to the song and it was so funny that I still make fun of him till today.

Dear Mr. Buble,

You see, about a month ago I found out that I was 8 weeks pregnant. You don’t know how happy I was to see that 2 blue lines on the pregnancy stick and also the word “pregnant” on the stick. We’ve been trying to get pregnant ever since I got married like 4 years ago. I’ve never gotten that 2 lines before even when I was late several weeks a few times. When I found out I told my husband and we went and bought another 2 pregnancy tests and tested and after that we went to see a doctor and did a blood test. The doctor confirmed my pregnancy and I was over the moon. I didn’t tell many people, just few people who were very close to me. We told our parents and they were very happy because I guess they knew how long we’ve been waiting for this good news.

However, our happiness didn’t last that long. We went for a check-up 2 weeks ago and the doctor said he couldn’t detect a heartbeat and said it was a miscarriage and told me I had to do a D&C. I can hear him saying all this words but I just couldn’t process it at that time. I felt sad, angry and wanted to kill that doctor for telling me the bad news.

Dear Mr. Buble,

The reason I’m telling you all this is to let you know that I still have hope. I listened to your song “Haven’t Met You Yet” and cried my hearts out. When I hear the first few lines of the song I can immediately relate to it. There have been so many times that I wished I was pregnant. When I’m late for even a week I’ll buy the pregnancy test and when it comes out negative I’d just cry in the bathroom. My heart breaks everytime I don’t see the 2 blue lines.

I'm Not Surprised

Not Everything Lasts

I’ve Broken My Heart So Many Times,

I Stopped Keeping Track.

Talk Myself In

I Talk Myself Out

I Get All Worked Up

Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Lose It

I Came Up With A Million Excuses

I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And then I listened to the rest of the lyrics from the song…

I might have to wait, I’ll never give up

I guess it's half timing and the other half's luck

Wherever you are, whenever it's right

You'll come outta nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing

And baby your love is gonna change me

And now I can see every possibility

I still believe that there is hope for me. There are times when I just want to give up, curl on my bed, turn off the lights and cry till I can’t cry anymore. But then I thought, “Hey! I did just get pregnant naturally when all this while I thought I couldn’t. That ought to count for something, right?”

Dear Mr. Buble,

I felt really bad for my husband too. When all this was happening to me I think people forgot to ask him whether he’s okay. His family members are so far away and he doesn’t have anyone to talk to here except for me. He tried so very hard to be strong for me but I know he was devastated and upset. I know he cries when he’s alone. He tried not to do it in front of me but I know he’s hurting. I just want him to be okay. I love him so much and felt so bad that I couldn’t give him this one gift that every woman is supposed to give to their husband. I want to move on and not be so sad anymore but it’s so very hard. I still find it hard to talk to my close friends about it. I want to tell them how I’m still hurting but I’m so afraid they’re going to tell me to get over it and move on. I don’t think I can handle that. I also want my husband to know that I noticed.

I noticed how caring, thoughtful and loving he is throughout this whole ordeal. I noticed that at times he looked sad but tried to put on a strong front. I noticed how he wants to make everything better for me. I noticed.

So Mr. Buble, the conclusion to this open letter is…please keep on making good music and lyrics. I know it’s cliché for some people but your song is helping me go through this tough time. God is with me and he’s giving me strength to move on and try again. But sometimes a song does wonders as well. My husband is your biggest fan. And I guess because of him, I became a fan too.

Happy Birthday to Moi & Happy 4th Anniversary Boo!

2011-02-23T17:47:00.000+08:00

It’s been too long since I last updated my blog. Let see, oh yes! I celebrated my 4th Wedding Anniversary and my 37th birthday all in the month of February. This year hubby and I decided not to travel far to celebrate our anniversary so we stayed one night at the Gardens Hotel. I am very impressed with the hotel room. If we’re not in our room then we’re out shopping at Gardens and Midvalley Megamall. Since it was a CNY holidays so the malls were quite and there were not many people around. It was just so nice walking around the mall with hubs at a slow pace and taking our time looking for things to buy.

On my birthday, hubs took me to a Mexican restaurant called Las Carretas near 10 Semantan for a special birthday dinner. The food was awesome and I got special treatment from the restaurant crew. Hubs said he called in advance to make reservation and they asked him if it was for any special occasion and he told them it was for my birthday and they told him not to worry as they will make it very special for me. True enough I was surprised and felt somewhat uncomfortable with all the special treatment I was getting. Never have I been to a restaurant and had a designated waitress serving us the whole time we were there. Hubs had his wagyu and I had my ribs and when hubs asked for the bill, lo and behold the restaurant crew came out with a guitar and put on a sombrero on me and sang Happy Birthday to the lovely Senorita! Hehehe…thank god there weren’t so many people in the restaurant or else I’d die of embarrassment. In any case, I have to thank my darling husband for such a wonderful dinner.

3 years to turning 40. Wow! I don’t know how comfortable I’d be turning 40 years old. Or whether I can actually tell people I’m 40 with a straight face, without cringing. Oh well…I’ll deal with it when the time comes I guess.

Besides gifts from my wonderful chickies, colleagues and hubs there is another gift that I’ve received which is just so priceless. It’s too soon to tell. I will definitely reveal when the time comes. In the meantime, happy February you guys! It’s been a great month and I’m looking forward to March!

Happy New Year!

2011-01-11T17:12:00.000+08:00

U guessed it. I’m updating the blog just coz it’s a nice date today.

11.1.11.

Before I forget, I would like to wish all of you a very Happy New Year. How did you spend your new year? I know some people who happily stayed home and avoided the traffic jam of celebrating the New Year at the shopping malls or in town.

I spent my new year in a company of good friends and bloody good food. I mean kari ketam with sayur ramunggai, rojak buah power, thatlastslice’s red velvet cake yang sangat-sangat awesome!? Come on! That’s good food I tell you.

On 3rd of Jan, my SIL gave birth to a baby boy named Laiq Rasyad. I’m a proud aunt yet again. He’s such a tall baby. Fair-skinned and adorable. The count so far, 6 nieces and 3 nephews.

I don’t have any New Year resolutions. I’ve decided that it’s pointless to make any since I never resolved any of them within the timeframe. I figure if ever I want to start doing something positive or good then I’ll just do it. It’s not good breaking promise to oneself ever so often, kan?

I’m turning 37 next month. 3 more years to the BIG four-oh. In any case, I don’t feel like my age. In my heart I’m still 29.

I’ll be celebrating my 4th wedding anniversary next month too. How time flies. I am grateful to be married to this wonderful man. We have our flaws, he and I but we fit perfectly well together I think. Bak kata Faizal Tahir in Hanyut,

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu

Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu

Bagaimana ku nanti

Bila tiada mengganti

Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam

Hanya kau ku terbayang

Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka

Kamulah yang pertama

Tak mampu aku bayangkan

Hidup tanpa dirimu

Life Is Too Short

2010-12-02T16:59:00.000+08:00

Most of the time we take life for granted. We act as if we’re going to live forever when it should be the other way around. We should live as if we are going to die tomorrow. But how many of us actually think about death everyday? Usually, we would think about what movies to watch, where to eat, what house or car we’re going to buy or where to go on holidays. Thinking about death is just too grim and depressing, especially when you think you’re too young to meet your maker. Why think about your mortality when there are other more interesting things to look forward to in life, right?

Last week, my mom told me she dreamt of my late grandma, Tok Yang. Tok Yang came to her and told her she’s going to take my mom to a wonderful place. When my mom told me of her dream, my heart skipped a beat because usually when people dream about something like that it means they’re going to die soon. I told her to stop talking about it, that she’s not going anywhere with my grandma and told her that she was going to live forever and that I am not prepared to lose her anytime soon. Because really, who wants to entertain the thought of their loved ones especially their parents not being around? I admit when it comes to my parents’ mortality especially my mother, I am one of those who are in perpetual denial. I want to think that she will outlive me because I don’t think I can survive without her.

After my mom told me about her dream, I can’t stop thinking about death. It’s not that I purposely want to think about it. I kept thinking how I would react if she was taken from me. And what can I do now so I won’t regret anything later? So now I try to make every day count. Every morning I would go to her room and kiss her good morning, something I rarely do before because I’m always late and will usually be in a rush to work. Whenever she wants me to do something, I try not to procrastinate and to do it as soon as I could. I try not to lose temper when she nags about small things. Take her out for breakfast, grocery shopping and to watch a theatre. She may not see the difference in my behavior now but to me it’s important that I do all that I guess. It’s important because if God were to take her away from me, I will have no regrets. I can honestly say, “I have done everything that a daughter is supposed to do for her mother.”

We always hear the words “Life is too short”. One day we could be healthy as a horse, and then suddenly stricken with an incurable disease the next. How many of us actually believe those words and try to do everything we can to make each second of our life meaningful? Well, I am trying to do my part bit by bit. Trying to make my life more meaningful and not fret over little things.

I am trying and I am thankful I have good friends and family members who will no doubt remind me if I ever forget.

20102010

2010-10-20T10:58:00.000+08:00

I'm just updating my blog because it is such a cool date today. Hahahaha!

Ok so hows everybody doing? It has not been a slow month, it’s just that I haven’t been to many raya open houses this year. Not being anti-social but it's just tiring taking care of nephew and nieces and when the weekend comes all I wanna do is sleep and watch tv.

Last week, I went for Adam Lambert's concert. Whatever you say about the man he can sure sing la. He has a very powerful voice and such a good performer. He sang some of the songs from his idol days and also from his album. I was so excited when he sang If I Had You, Strut and Whadaya Want From Me.

Oh and hubby was handed this flyer by a PAS protester outside the concert venue. Hehehe..one of them tried to pass this flyer to me but I just smiled and politely said no thanks. Adoi, he made me feel so guilty la. There I was standing, wearing tudung with goth make-up on. Hahaha!

I was also involved as a volunteer for the World Capital Market Symposium which was held end of September at Shangri-La Hotel this year. It was a good experience and I get to meet an array of world capital market specialists. I volunteered as a Liaison Officer or LO and it was a lot of work. I mean the LOs have to be on top of things even before these delegates arrived. But it was worth it I guess. I got to meet Dr. Nouriel Roubini, an economics professor at New York University's Stern School of Business and chairman of Roubini Global Economics, an economic consultancy firm. He is also known as “Dr. Doom” for having predicted that US was going to face an economic crisis 2 years ago. I also had the pleasure of meeting Jimmy Wales, the founder of Wikipedia. He was so passionate when he talked about how he started wiki.

Dr. Doom

Jimmy Wales

We also have a new addition to the family. My brother and SIL’s 4^th child whom they decide to name Maira Syafeenaz Sayang. The 2^nd one was named Maizatul Sabreena Cinta, the 3^rd Maisarah Syakeela Qaseh and now the 4^th one is Sayang. Don’t ask me what he was thinking. The poor child having to live with the name Sayang.

My other niece Cinta and nephew Hareez was featured as models in the Mingguan Wanita raya edition below. Geramness!

I took this at one of my friend's open houses. They fight a lot but they're close, as how a bro and sis should be.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 1431H

2010-09-02T13:49:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan akan melabuhkan tirainya tidak lama lagi dan aku duduk sambil berfikir adakah cukup amalan yang telah aku lakukan di sepanjang bulan yang mulia ini?

Sepatutnya di bulan ramadhan orang berpusu-pusu ke masjid untuk bersembahyang tarawikh secara jemaah dan melakukan qiamulail. MasyaAllah, betapa besarnya pahala melakukan ibadat wajib dan sunat di bulan Ramadhan ini! Tapi malangnya, peluang ini tidak diambil oleh kita manusia, termasuk diriku sendiri. Kita alpa, hanya memikirkan apa makanan yang hendak dibeli dan tempat untuk berbuka, di mana hendak dibeli baju raya dan berapa balang kuih raya patut ditempah atau dibuat sendiri.

Kadang-kadang aku duduk sambil memikirkan jika Allah mencabut nyawaku pada ketika ini, adakah cukup segala ibadat yang aku lakukan selama aku hidup? Dapatkan segala ibadah yang aku lakukan membawaku ke syurga? Aku tidak punya anak yang dapat mendoakan aku, aku cuma punya ibadah dan amal jariah yang akan dihitung..adakah semua itu mencukupi? Entahlah.

Bulan ramadhan kali ini bagiku sungguh hiba dengan ketiadaan datuk dan nenekku. Apa yang boleh kulakukan hanyalah bersedekah doa dan ayat-ayat al-quran untuk mereka jadikan bekalan.

Kawan-kawanku, di kesempatan ini, aku ingin memohon maaf di atas segala ketelanjuran perbuatan dan tutur kata yang mungkin menyinggung perasaan kalian. Sesungguhnya aku manusia yang serba kekurangan, yang tidak terlepas dari melakukan kesilapan.

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan semoga segala amalan kita di bulan yang mulia ini diterima Allah SWT.

Kekanda Adinda by Monoloque & Atilia Haron

2010-09-01T13:23:00.002+08:00

I can't get enough of this song. It's too cute. Been a long time since I heard a malay song that I loved and can listen to over and over again. Thanks to hubby for letting me know about the song :)

(P) Oh Kekanda jangan irihati, Dinda naik pangkat lagi..
(L) Oh Adinda, Kanda mana dengki, malah Kanda support bini..

(P) Jadi Dinda mahu mengambil masa
(L) Tapi Kanda mahu segera
(P) Dinda ingin berjaya dalam kerjaya
(L) Tapi Kanda mahu cahaya mata
(P) Dinda belum bersedia
(L) Kanda dah beria ria
(P) Jadi yg mana satu?
(P+L) Tak perlu bertengkar. Tak perlu bermasam muka

(L) Oh Adinda, tolong jangan lekas curiga, lekas cemburu buta
(P) Oh Kekanda, Dinda perlu berhati-hati, tak rela dikongsi

(L) Kanda kerja overtime, terlebih masa
(P) Itu yg Dinda harus berwaspada
(L) Ini semua demi masa depan keluarga
(P) Dengan Dinda atau sebaliknya?
(L) Kanda kerja malam
(P) Dinda kerja siang
(L) Jadi bila nak bertemu?
(P+L) Tak perlu bertengkar. Tak perlu bermasam muka

(P) Oh adiwira, dewataku, mari ikut cara Dinda!
(L) Oh Tun Teja, intan permata, mari ikut cara Kanda!
(P+L) Oh Bagaimana? Bagaimana kita nak selesaikannya? Apa keputusannya?

(P) Oh Kekanda mari Nyawa, kita cuba komunikasi!
(L) Oh Adinda mari Sayang, kita cuba toleransi!

(P+L) Walau kita janji sehidup semati, kita berlainan
(L) Kanda polar kutub Utara
(P) Dinda kutub Selatan
(P+L) Komunikasi, sikap toleransi! Itu yg kita perlu
(P+L) Tak perlu bertengkar. Tak perlu bermasam muka

(L) Walau kita sering dgn cara masing-masing
(P) Kanda yg Perdana
(L) Dinda yg Utama
(P) Kanda sgalaNya..
(L) Dindalah Nyawa..
(P+L) kita tetap bahagia bila bersama-sama

bahagia bersama,
bersama selamanya,
bahagia selama-lamanya!

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2010-08-11T13:08:00.000+08:00

Don’t you just hate people with holier than thou attitude? I was at the mosque near my house for tarawikh prayers last night and there was this Makcik sitting next to me. I think we just finished the 4th rakaat and about to go into the 5th. This Makcik stood up and started pointing her fingers to this little girl who was not praying (she looked like she was about 5 or 6 years old), sitting next to I believe was her mother (about 4 rows in front of us) and this rude Makcik started shouting,

“Hello! Hello! Kalau tak sembahyang mana boleh duduk dalam saf. Duduk kat tepi!”

She was literally shouting okay! And she kept on shouting until the little girl moved. Macam tu ke tegur budak? Main jerit “Hello! Hello!” jer? It was sooo bloody rude. I was so angry but kept my cool because the Imam had started on the 5th rakaat already. In my heart I was thinking if the little girl hadn’t moved I’m going to tell this Makcik to behave herself and cakap elok2 to the little girl. Tegur perangai buruk Makcik ni, biar dia pulak yang malu. Geram betul. After being shouted at, the little girl actually moved to the side.

Sumpah tak khusyuk aku sembahyang pasal Makcik kurang ajar ni. Why couldn’t she just go to the front and nicely and quietly tegur the little girl? Why must she embarrass the little girl together with her mother??? Seriously I don’t understand some people. Do they derive pleasure from embarrassing other people in public? Dahlah bulan puasa, supposed to be bulan you banyak sabar and cakap benda elok-elok jer. Ni tak! What do you get from doing that? Konon menegakkan Islam la. Sheesh! Yang hairannya, she was sitting 4 rows at the back from where the girl was sitting tapi mata macam helang dapat jer tengok other people’s mistake.

You can’t stop people especially mothers from coming to the mosque and bringing their kids. I understand that even mothers too nak buat pahala and amik berkat sembahyang tarawikh kat masjid during Ramadhan. It can be annoying when the kids cry especially small children crying non-stop when you’re performing your prayers but sabar jer lah. Ni kan dugaan. Mana tahu next time anak you pulak yang melalak. Not everyone has a maid they can leave their kids with.

Iskh. First day of tarawikh dah menduga kesabaran. Hopefully, I don’t get to sit with people like this in the future. Would like to have a peaceful tarawikh.

A Good & Relaxing Weekend

2010-08-09T16:49:00.000+08:00

I love Redang Island. Went for a holiday with hubby and 3 of my good friends together with their hubbies 2 weeks ago. I love Redang because the boat ride to the island doesnt take as long as the boat ride to Tioman. Some pictures taken by my friend's hubby below. The island is as beautiful as the pics taken. MasyaAllah.

We stayed at the Redang Holiday Beach Villa for 3D2N. We got a nice spacious room with 2 twin beds. I dont know why on earth they gave us 2 twin beds but we were not complaining. The snorkelling trips were good especially at the Marine Park. Oh and I saw a baby shark while snorkelling near our resort! That was cool. But I have to say the fishies in redang were not as colourful as the ones in tioman.

Last weekend hubby, myself and a friend went to see Cuci The Musical 2. Ive watched the first one and somehow thought the 1st one was better (my personal opinion). Nabil was hilarious but somehow there was no chemistry between him and the other 3, unlike AC Mizal. I guess if you havent seen the first one you'd still like the 2nd one coz both Cuci 1 and 2 were damn funny and I was laughing throughout the whole 4 hours of Cuci 2! I love the ad-libs and I thought the ad-libs made the whole show funny. Jaclyn Victor was good but she was nowhere in comparison with Adibah Noor. Now THAT woman has presence. But for a first timer, I thought both Nabil n Jac did good. However, I dont think they should make the show sooo long. Sitting in the very hard chair for 4 hours is no fun, especially when you're not allowed to drink! Overall I thought Hans, Harith Iskander and the whole Cuci 2 team did a good job.

Redang Here I Come!

2010-07-28T13:49:00.000+08:00

In 3 days time I will be chillaxing in Redang. Aahhh bliss! I'm already so excited that I can't concentrate on work anymore. Sun. Sea. Sand. I've always been a beach person. I would rather go to Hawaii or Maldives than shop in London or Paris. Shopping is so overated sometimes. Hehehe..

Friends have advised me to wear eco-friendly sunblock so as to avoid coral bleaching. I've been reading about it. Seems that it's caused by among other things, increased or reduced water temperatures. So sad that our corals are dying.

Ramadhan is just around the corner. Bulan untuk menambahkan ibadat dan pahala. Not bulan untuk ber"buffet" sampai tak ingat dunia. Must remember that.

My youngest brother just informed me that his wife is having a girl! They already have 2 girls and a boy. The last time they checked it was supposed to be a boy. Looks like my nephew Hareez will still enjoy the privileges of becoming the only boy. I told my brother to give me his youngest child for me to jaga. Saja jer. Mana tau, lepas I jaga then can melekat kat I plak. InsyaAllah :) We'll see how it goes. Kalau nak bagi then bagi terus tau..heheh..

Miss Congeniality

2010-07-22T10:46:00.001+08:00

A friend sent me an email which contained news that Sandra Bullock is giving her husband, Jesse James a second chance. I really respect Sandra Bullock. She is just such a wonderful and good human being. In the news article there's also a quote by M.D. Keith Ablow. He said,

"Infidelity is almost never a reason why educated, introspective and forgiving people stay separated or divorced. If other facets of the relationship are present -- including commitment to one's children and an overriding sense that life is more meaningful together than apart -- then marriages can not only survive infidelity, but end up stronger, despite it."

This guy knows what he is talking about.

So Long and Goodbye!

2010-07-20T15:30:00.001+08:00

Someone tweeted, "I would so much rather have a few of good friends than a lot of fake friends". I say Amin to that!

I would also like to say, "Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty".

So what I'm trying to say here is, YOU'RE the fake friend. You're also a coward for not having the balls to confront me and tell me you're hurt by what I purportedly said. If you were to confront me then you would know that the comments werent directed at you. It has nothing to do with you in fact.

I'm amazed at the troubles you had to go through to let me know what you thought of me. Calling me "the blackest pot" and "org yg tak sedar diri, tak reti nak cermin sendiri, konon bagus yg ckp ikut suka jerr"...I leave it to God to balas whatever you've said to me. For the 100th times, you got it all wrong..again!

All I want to say is so long old friend! You will not be missed.

Of Effing Idiot and A Crappy Drama

2010-07-14T12:12:00.005+08:00

You know what's annoying? I'll tell you what's annoying.

You're in a restaurant with a bunch of friends. Then you ordered the food and wait for it to come. Food came for everyone. Then one person tasted her food and found that it was not that nice or it tasted like crap. Then this person would actually offer the not so nice food to her friends to taste to affirm that it is in fact not nice. I mean come on! If it's not nice then why the heck would you want to offer it to other people to taste? Just simply say, "Ladies, next time dont order this dish. It tastes like crap" would suffice.

What is it with people and the need to have affirmation? If you say your food is crap, trust me, I'll believe you. You dont need my opinion to affirm how crappy the food is. Plus it's not polite to offer crappy food to people. Tak belajar manners ke?

Oh and what's up with Mel "Psycho" Gibson? Has he gone mental?! The things that is spewing out of his mouth is pure filth! I got sick to my stomach listening to this audio of him fighting with Oksana on the phone. He needs to be admitted to a mental institution la. Psycho! And to think I used to idolise him especially after the movie Braveheart! Sheesh!

One more thing, I do watch malay dramas okay. I am not ashame to admit that (can ask my husband). But I am ashame to call "Duyung Aridinata" a malaysian product. The script macam sampah and merepek nak mampos. So sayang coz the dramas has the possibility of being a good fantasy drama. I sat through Dendam Orang Minyak, Sayang Cendana and even Siong but nothing compares to this Duyung drama man. Tony Eusoff as the Papa Duyung has the most ridiculous lines and I am dreading the scenes with Fasha Sandha. And to think that I've only seen 2 episodes!! I dont know how this drama can get better and I'm afraid to watch and find out and waste 1 hour of my life. Sigh.

A Lovely July

2010-07-13T10:37:00.004+08:00

World Cup is over and Spain was the champion. Yay! Better Spain than the Neanderthals. As you can see I am still upset with the Neanderthals for kicking Brazil out of the WC so obviously I would support Spain in the finals. They played better anyway.

I watched Eclipse last weekend and thought it was corny as hell! But, I love the corniness of it all and that they actually followed the book! Sigh...I am still in team Edward but damn that Jacob is hawt on screen! If anyone read the book they would soooo be on team Edward okay. Those who are on team Jacob actually tidak menghayati the book sepenuhnya and terpengaruh dengan body 6 packs Taylor Lautner. Muahahaha!

I thought Kristen Stewart sucked as Bella. That girl cant act I tell you! No emotions at all. She can't even fake a cry! So kayu! Wahai Mr. Director, I personally think I can act better than her and I will rock as Bella. Hehehe..Seriously, this is like the 3rd movie already and Kristen's acting has NOT improved at all.

We have 3 mommies-to-be at the office and today we're organising a baby shower for all of them. I want a baby shower too coz I want presents! Hehehe..emo kejap.

I have 2 weddings to go to this weekend. I am running out of baju kurungs to wear lah.

Fasting month is around the corner. You guys dah ganti puasa?

There is no water in the toilet at my office. Smart building la sangat sampai takder air! Sheesh!

I cant wait till end of the month because my friends and I are going to Redang! Wooohoo! Sand, sea and sun! Hehehe..cant wait to go snorkelling. Cepatlah skit end of the month. I need a holiday!

Waka Waka Eh Eh...

2010-07-08T11:20:00.006+08:00

Ok I have to keep the momentum going. Trying to update at least twice a week. Hopefully not "hot hot chicken shit"...hehehehe...

World Cup fever is ending soon. I'm not really a huge football fan so I don't watch all those EPL games but when it comes to World Cup then yeah I'm a fan! I support Brazil and it was heartbreaking when they lost to the Neanderthals. Now Spain and the Neanderthals are in the final. I'm sure you can guess who I will be rooting for. Definitely NOT the Neanderthals. Yes, I'm petty that way. A bit of a sore loser too. Hehehe..So you won't see me rooting for countries who have beaten Brazil. I don't care what people say about Brazil. Defence tak kuat la, everyone depending solely on Kaka la...Who cares? I still have faith in them. They will come back better and stronger in 2014. Hubby said I'm a very scary person when I watch the games especially when Brazil is playing. I turned into a "monster" somehow. LOL! I have to agree with him. What to do? He married a passionate woman so have to deal with it la kan? :P

I've got 4 weddings to attend in July. It's a busy, busy month. A colleague and a friend's sister will be getting married this weekend. Then an ex-colleague is getting married next week. Hubby's futsal buddy is also getting married next week.

Owning a property be it a house or kondo is pretty scary kan? I mean you have to deal with the monthly payments, groceries, utilities, management fees (if you live in a kondo) and furnitures. Hubby and I are seriously thinking about buying a kondo and moving out of my parents' place but thinking about all those expenses is already giving me a headache. But it must be done. If we dont move out now then we will be too comfortable at my parents place and will never move out. It's a pretty big decision I know. But I am excited. I get to decorate the kondo however I want to. And most importantly we have our privacy. I have been living with my parents since like forever. Rasa sedih la jugak if I move out especially when I wont be near my nephew and niece coz they usually sleep at my parents house.

But we've made our decision and we're sticking to it. We're definitely getting our own place and moving out. InsyaAllah all will be well. Pray for us :)

I Am Not A Tin Kosong

2010-07-05T16:35:00.004+08:00

You see I'm not the kind of person who likes to "kipas/jilat bontot" my superiors. I let my my work speak for itself. But nowadays, told that's not how people do things anymore. "Tin kosong" is in and "diam-diam berisi" is out.

I've been told that for you to be noticed by the higher powers that be, you need to be more vocal during meetings. You need to speak up and give your views or do like what some people would do i.e. summarise the views of their colleagues and then voice it out confidently like it's their own views. Smart kan? I honestly can't stand these kind of people. You know, people who has opinions about EVERYTHING but not necessarily their own?!

I know a person who rarely socialises with his colleagues outside of work but if he hears that his boss was going to be there then he would turn up just to "show face". I just couldnt be bothered. If I dont feel like socialising after working hours then I wont bother turning up even if my boss was going to be there. But I know for a fact that socialising after office hours does help one's career.

I've been feeling very de-motivated lately. I need to get out of this funk I'm in or else I'm going to sink even deeper. God help me, please.

Should I Stay or Should I Go

2010-07-02T16:54:00.006+08:00

This is my 241 posting. Cant believe I've been blogging since 2005. My blog will be 5 years old come Sept 2010. I've still got so much to say and write but sometimes I just dont have the energy to type them out.

The blogging community has changed so much. I missed my blogger friends who used to update their blogs at least 3 times a week! Now nak post once a month pun payah! Myself included. I know some friends who actually check on how I'm doing by reading my blog. If I write about something that upsets me, these friends will actually email/text me to ask me whether I'm alright and I appreciate that very much. Most of my friends are on my fb/twitter lists but some are not. So blogging is the only way for me to let them know that I'm alive and well.

Hubby posted something on his twitter. He said, "Hmmm...in d last month, added 2 new nephews back home. 2 more coming frm d wife's side. Wondering when it wld be our turn".

I felt so sad reading his tweet. We both want children so badly. But I dont want to dwell on it. We will just have to do everything in our power to make that happen. InsyaAllah.

In the meantime, I'm so thankful to have wonderful, cute and smart nieces and nephew to make me happy. I think I would go crazy if they're not around. Pic below is of my nephew. He's 5 years old and this year has started going to kindie. Looks like an angel but OMG! suka menjawab!

The one below is taken at the mosque during my cousin's akad nikah. The one in orange is my 4 year old niece and the one in green is my 2 year old niece. Yup, my life would definitely be incomplete without them.

Al-Fatihah for Tok Ayah...

2010-06-25T11:12:00.004+08:00

My grandfather, Tok Ayah passed away on Monday the 21st June 2010 at 11.45 am at the age of 83. I wrote about how the passing of my grandma (click here), Tok Yang had affected him so much. Before he died, he often cried himself to sleep thinking about my grandma. He missed her so much that after she died that he doesnt seemed to have a will to live.

Tok Ayah had diabetes. A very bad one. He had been struggling with the disease for a few years even before my Tok Yang passed away. It got worse after Tok yang died. He just didnt care about his health anymore, because Tok Yang wasnt around to lovingly nag him when he had more than a cup of teh tarik or a bar of chocolate. Losing Tok Yang was very hard for him. My Tok Ayah was a man of few words. He doesnt nag, he doesnt get angry and most importantly he was a loving grandpa.

When I was 10 and 11 years old, my parents left for US and UK to do their masters. They left me and my bro in my grandparents' care because they said that they couldnt bring all 4 of us with them.

When I was in Standard 4, I was schooling in the morning session and every Monday there was extra classes. So every Monday we had to go home at 4pm. There were 2 recesses, one at 10 am and another one at 1.30pm. Every Monday without fail my Tok Ayah would send a pack of nasi campur to me at 1.30pm and then he would pick me up from school at 4pm on his motorbike. I would hug him tightly where the journey from my school to my house took about half an hour. So from Mon to Fri, without fail Tok Ayah would pick me up from school and I would go home with him on his motorbike. I loved riding on his motorbike. It was like an adventure and sometimes when I was too tired I would actually fall asleep hugging him on that bike.

When I was staying with my grandparents, they fed me so well that 2 years after my parents came back from overseas they were shocked to see that their only daughter had put on so much weight that she was unrecognisable to them! My mom was shocked when she met me at the train station coz I was so fat! Hehehe...Well, what do you expect? When I was sad and missing my mom, my Tok yang would cook for me. I was never hungry when I lived with them.

I miss Tok Yang and Tok Ayah so much! Tok Yang was the one who started calling me "sherieza" and the name stuck until now. Whenever I went back to their place in Sg Petani, Tok Yang would already started thinking of what to cook for us. Tok Ayah would be sitting in his favourite chair and smiled and greeted us as we came through the door no matter at what hour. They would actually get out of bed and greet us at the door!

I regretted not visiting Tok Ayah so often after Tok Yang died. I was busy with my married life and I didnt spend as much time as I would like to with Tok Ayah. That was the only thing I regretted most. Tok Ayah was the gentlest soul I've ever known. Even when he was cheated out of his inheritance he was cool about it. He didnt fight or made noise because he believed Allah is Great and those people will get their punishment from god.

He was also an expert silat master. He was strong when he was young and could take out anyone easily, be it 1 or 10 men at one time.

My Tok Ayah was such a patient man. Do you know what he said when the nurses came to sponge bath him at blardy 5am while the aircond was in full blast? He said, "Takpalah, dah keja depa." The bloody doctor didnt even detect that he had pneumonia! How can one not contract pneumonia if one was given a sponge bath at blardy 5am and all clothes was removed while the aircond was blasting full force and one was not wearing anything for an hour???!!! Arrghh!! When my aunt told me all this stories it made me sooooo mad I felt like going to the hospital and punch the doctors and nurses there! But when all that was happening my Tok Ayah never complained. He simply took it. He didnt tell us how much pain he was in when the nurses was jabbing a tube down his throat to check for ulcers in his stomach, he didnt complain about how the nurses had woken him up for sponge baths everyday at 5am and he didnt complain about his bed sores while he was in the hospital.

His last words to my aunties before he slipped into a coma and passed away the day after was, "Jangan risau, Ayah okay". Even then he wanted to assure us that he was going to be okay. He went peacefully. In a way I'm happy he went because at least he wasn't in pain anymore but at the same time it was really sad losing him.

Rest in peace my dear Tok Ayah. Semoga Tok Ayah ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman. My prayers are with you always. Al-fatihah...

The day the snoring stopped...

2010-06-18T10:51:00.005+08:00

I've been on MC for the past 2 weeks. And I'm happy to report that I've lost 4 kilos all due to the tonsillectomy operation I had undergone 2 weeks ago. No joke okay. Not being able to eat hot and spicy food is really killing me. Not only did I undergo tonsillectomy operation, the doctor also did a septoplasty operation on me. Basically he took out a crooked bone in my nose. He said he had to do it to clear the air passage in my nose so I could breath better. He also cleared up my sinus. The operation took almost 4 hours and recovery process is very long. I have been enjoying copius amount of ice cream...like a week after the op. Right after the op, even swallowing water hurts.The first few days I could only eat porridge and soup. Then a friend who had undergone the op had told me that I have to try and eat solid food so I can get rid of the whitish coloured slough on my throat and get better. It was tough swallowing rice. I felt like a thousand knives were cutting through my throat.

Now 2 weeks after the op I can eat solid food but still no hot and spicy food. Im really craving for nasi lemak with sambal paru. Sigh.

Dalam MC tu sempat lagi pegi tengok Spirit of Rugby Challenge 2010 at the Kelana Jaya Stadium. For the first time I saw The Classic All Blacks did the haka and I shook hands with the legendary Jonah Lomu. He looked so much older and not so energetic. But it was funny to see that everytime he got the ball (which was not so often) the crowd would go crazy and cheered for him like mad. I guess he is still considered one of the greatest rugby player ever.

That was about the only excitement I got during my 2 weeks mc. I dont even know why I went to the rugby match, considering I cant even shout and cheer. I guess I was just so bored at home that I would give anything to get out of the house.

I'll be back at the office next week. And I promise you when I start work I'd be bitching about it and will be telling my colleagues how I miss staying at home, eating ice cream and watching all the tv series. So far I've finished The Good Wife, Supernatural Season 5 and True Blood season 2 and starting on 1st epi of season 3. Think now I'm gonna start on Gossip Girl Season 3, Grey's Anatomy Season 6 and Life Unexpected. Best kan duduk rumah? hehehe...

Freddy's Coming For You

2010-05-27T14:52:00.003+08:00

When I was about 9 years old I was chased and bitten by a puppy. That incident traumatised me so much that until now I'm afraid of puppies, no matter how cute and adorable they are. I'm also afraid of dogs as a result of that wretched puppy who bit my leg.

I've also known a friend who got into a really bad accident and it took him years before he could get into a car, let alone apply for a driver's license. We would sometimes kutuk him (behind his back of course) and say that it is sooo tak macho for a man who is in his late 30s who cant drive a car and expect his date to pick him up everytime. I guess he got over his fears now becoz I heard he got his license and bought himself a Volvo.

What is it about traumatic experience that leaves us paralysed with fears? Is it really all in our mind? How do we overcome such fears? I've always heard people say, "it's mind over matter". Oh well, it depends on how strong a person's mind is I guess. And it would also depend on whether they are willing to get over that fear.

There's also this friend of mine who is supposedly afraid of cats. Some would say it's a stupid thing to be afraid of, I mean come on! How scary can a cat be right? We would always teased her and say that she's "mengada-ngada" because everytime she sees a cat she would scream bloody mary and jump on a chair. And because she's so pretty guys would always come to her rescue and chase the cat away. Pfffftttt! We would talk amongst ourselves and say that she's pretending to be afraid of cats and was only doing that to get attention. Thinking back now I genuinely believed that she was not really afraid of them cats. She was just "geli" with their "bulu". Hehehe...

So anyway, what I am trying to say here is that I'm not willing to get over my fear of dogs and cockroaches. Lantaklah apa korang nak cakap. Word.

To Lend or Not To Lend

2010-05-18T16:34:00.003+08:00

A friend, lets call him A once called me up and asked me whether he should lend money to another friend of ours, lets call him B and how much should he lend to B. I told A, if he wants to lend money to B just because B is a friend and he wants to help a friend out then he should lend to B an amount which he knows that even if he doesnt get back the money he would be okay with it and that it won't ruin his friendship with B. In other words, "kira burn/halal la".

Lending money to friends or even relatives is a tricky thing. On one hand you really want to help your friend out but on the other hand if that friend doesnt pay you back then it could ruin your friendship with that person. Say you make it a point to only lend money to good friends but how does one define a "good friend"? Someone whom you've known since childhood? Someone you've known since you first worked at the office 5 years ago? If that friend has a history of not paying back his debt then you know you should not be lending him money. But what if he's never borrowed any money from you before?

Say you've lent your friend the money and when the time has come for him to pay, he somehow "forgot" (give benefit of the doubt jugak la kan) to pay. So you text him reminding him to pay. No reply. Then you call him but he didnt pick up your calls. He didnt even reply your text messages. So what now? Takkan la nak bagi dia 100 ribu kali missed call. Nanti orang ingat hadap sangat dengan that hutang but the truth is, you really do need to get back the money. So what else can you do? Nak report police over la pulak if he only borrowed tak sampai RM2K for example.

What I want to know is, how do you decide whether or not to lend money to friends or relatives? What is the deciding factor?

Bikin Filem

2010-05-10T15:59:00.003+08:00

I like watching malay dramas. That is like my guilty pleasures. I enjoy watching Adamaya, Mertua vs. Menantu, Nur Kasih, all the horror dramas like Ku Seru, Penunggu Gunung Raya and Jangan Pandang Belakang and the occasional Redah Kasi Pecah. Yes, I watch cerita melayu. So what?? I dont care if people say I'm lame for watching those dramas. Some people think jatuh martabat tengok cerita melayu, except when it's directed by Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad. Why is that? There are so many good malay directors out there like Afdlin Shauki, Mamat Khalid (yes! I enjoyed all his movies okay! so sue me!), Shuhaimi Baba, Aziz M. Osman and Amir Muhammad (although I thought Susuk was confusing but hey! it was somewhat interesting). Just because we have the likes of Yusuf Haslam and Razak Mohaideen in the film industry, that doesnt mean all malay movies sucked.

Sometimes I cant stand arrogant people and posers who think they're above it all, you know the ones who proudly say they dont watch malay movies/dramas but I know when they're home alone, they actually watch Gerak Khas! Puhleeess.

I admit there are some malay dramas yang memang kalau you tengok you feel like pulling your hair out, like WTF is this drama all about but not all cerita melayu takder purpose. Some do have good pengajaran like you should take good care of your parents, dont sakitkan their hati and jangan dok menangkan your wife jer (which happens a lot in malay families), or jangan pinjam from along or else kena potong jari...u know those kind of pengajaran :P

So lastly I would like to say Filem Kita, Wajah Kita. Kalau tak suka tengok, tutup tv saja. Kutuk-kutuk pun tak guna. Kalau ingat terer sangat pegilah buat better drama!

It's Not A Good Friday.

2010-04-02T17:05:00.003+08:00

Let me start by saying I am not a saint. I have my flaws. God knows I have my flaws. I'm not perfect. No one is. But I do know where to draw the line. I know that in life whatever you give, be it good or bad you will get back double. It's true what they say, what goes around comes around. So there are a few things that I will never do, not if I can help it.

The top of my list would be, "I would never hurt my husband by having an affair" and/or "I would never wreck someone's marriage by stealing their husband". I despise women who do that. In fact I curse women who has nothing better to do than to kacau rumahtangga orang lain. What goes around comes around. Oh puhlees! Men are also to be blamed. Tepuk sebelah tangan tak berbunyi. Before you even think about cheating on your wife, think about your children. Think about God!

That's all I have to say about that!

The State of Being

2010-03-30T18:10:00.002+08:00

Song on replay - Hey, Soul Sister by Train. I love the lyrics...plus it makes me smile...

DVDs watched - Daybreakers, Shutter Island, Gamer and Did You Hear About the Morgans?

Book I'm currently reading, very very slowly - A Colossal Failure of Common Sense : The Incredible Story of the Collapse of Lehman Brothers.

Last movie watched in cinema - Alice In Wonderland.

Can't stop Tweeting.

Hubby is pestering me to enter the KL Marathon on 26th June 2010. The 5km "fun" run. Since when is running a fun thing to do, hmmmm?

Of Edward and a movie marathon

2010-02-17T11:27:00.006+08:00

I am thankful for friends who acknowledge the fact that I am crazy about Edward Cullen. No, not the actor Robert Pattinson who plays Edward but the real Edward Cullen from the book. My friends threw us (another friend and I who celebrated our birthday in Feb) a surprise Twlight/New Moon theme birthday lunch at Food Foundry yesterday. Food was so-so but I was in great company. Thank god for lovely friends!

I watched Percy Jackson last weekend. For those who read the book, they might be a tad disappointed because there were few scenes from the book that were not shown in the movie. I was looking forward to seeing Poseidon in his Hawaiian shirt but that wasnt in the movie. But all in all it was a very entertaining how.

I also watched Valentine's Day. I was however very disappointed with the movie. Maybe because there were so many famous actors that they didnt develop the storyline well. Love Actually to me is still the best romantic-comedy-drama movie I've ever seen. It's really hard to top that one. He's Not That Into You was good but still not as good as Love Actually.

The Wolfman was not as scary as I thought. There were few scenes that made me screamed and jumped off my seat but still not scary enough. The transformation scene was not that impressive either.

So, what shall I watch next?

Of Wagyu and Chippendale Dance

2010-02-09T15:57:00.002+08:00

I am so friggin sleepy. Had to wake up early to go to work as I have to make a presentation to my department. Thankfully it went well. I get so nervous everytime I have to present in public. Considering I have been presenting my cases before a judge when I was practicing, I should not get so nervous. Judges throw files, bosses dont...well, at least my boss doesnt throw any files at us lah.

I can't bloody stop yawning right now. Help me!

So yesterday was my birthday. Hubby took me to Jake's Charbroiled and I ordered the 300gm wagyu beef. Oh-Am-Gee! It was so succulent and tender and delicious and I managed to finish it off..Hahahaha! Amazing right? He got me a necklace with an alphabet "S" pendant which I absolutely love, famous amos cookies (my husband loves to feed me) and a very cute card. Last night, I was so busy preparing for my presentation this morning that I forgot to make him do the Chippendale dance. Hahaha! That was the intention actually but somehow I totally forgot! Lucky him. I'm so gonna make him do the dance on my next birthday. Seriously.

Even though my birthday is officially over, I'm still busy replying "thank-yous" to everyone on facebook and to those who sent me birthday wish via text messages. I'm so thankful I have so many wonderful friends and I love them to bits. Hubby always say that he never gets birthday wishes as many as I do (even before FB) and I told him the reason for that is because his birthday falls on Labour Day. I mean it's a public holiday so people tend to forget their friend's birthday unless they're in the office.

I am seriously falling off my chair now because of this sleepiness. I can hardly open my eyes! Okay I'm off to make some coffee now. Hopefully that will keep me awake till balik time.

p/s : I'm reading Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief as fast as I can...hopefully I can finish it before the movie comes out.

Crap and other bullshit

2010-02-04T17:16:00.003+08:00

I need to do something to cheer myself up. Everything just seems to either bore me or irritate me nowadays. My friends say maybe I need to get away so when I come back I will feel energised and refreshed. Yeah right! Like that is going to happen. Usually after you come back from a holiday, you need another holiday to recover from your previous one. It's neverending!

I am not suffering from depression. I live a well-balanced life I should think. But sometimes it is just so hard to get out of bed. What is wrong with me?? Even my husband could not cheer me up sometimes. It's just frustrating for me and for him too I guess because when he tells me something my mind just wonders off and i ended up not registering whatever he said. And that of course annoys him, which in turn annoys me.

I just have this feeling you know...like I can't pinpoint what is bothering me but I just feel so bothered! Been feeling like this for a few weeks now. It's an annoying feeling to have.

Maybe I've been feeling this way because I'm turning 36 next week. On the 8th Feb to be exact. But the thing is I've never been depressed about turning a year older because I really believe that age is just mind over matter, you know if you don't mind then it won't matter?!

I think I am just afraid of getting older and not getting pregnant...like ever. Yeah, yeah belum rezeki lagi, I know the speech. It's just so bloody annoying when i think about it. It would be so much better if as we get older, our womb gets younger, don't you think so? Then I don't have to worry about all that biological clock is ticking crap.

Oh crap. I am going to be 36 next week and I am terrified. i am so bloody terrified. God help me please.

Love.Makes.You.Dizzy

2010-02-03T18:02:00.003+08:00

Roses are red

Violets are blue

The best decision I've ever made

Was by marrying you...

Happy 3rd Wedding Anniversary my dear husband...may we have many more anniversaries to celebrate...

I'll Be There

2009-11-10T11:39:00.001+08:00

You know how when something bad happens to you, people around you try to console you by saying things like “I know how you feel” or “You have to be strong” or “Everything will be okay”? Do you feel consoled or does it irritate the hell out of you?

Most of the time it would irritate the hell out me especially if I know for a fact that person has never gone through what I have gone through but acts as if she/he knows what she/he is talking about. I would be tempted to slap her/him, I can tell you that. As much as you want to help and I’m sure you have good intentions but when you are trying to console a person you have to be mindful of what you say. I don’t know about other people but when I’m pouring my heart out, I would expect the other person to just keep quiet and listen and not offer any advice. Not yet. I also expect that person not to jump in and say, “I know how you feel!” and start telling me her sad story and expect me to feel better because something bad had happened to her too (albeit not the same as what happened to me) and I should be relieved because I’m not the only person suffering here. I think there should be a course on how you should console a person and if you don’t have the necessary “tool” or “tact” then you shouldn’t attempt to! You will only make it worse.

If a friend just told you that her husband had cheated on her with another women and she’s devastated, the last thing you should say to her is, “I know how you feel” when in fact you’ve never gone through such ordeal. You don’t know the feeling of being lied to and betrayed and saying things like that will only make your friend angry at you because she will think you’re insensitive. You will never fully know how it feels until such things happen to you. And please don’t start shooting your mouth off by telling your friend to leave her husband and get a divorce. If you’re trying to console someone in that situation, you need to keep your head straight and not get angry. Your friend is counting on you to give good advice and telling her to leave the bastard and get a divorce is NOT good advice. Oh yes, the advice goes the same for the men too. Please don’t go asking your friend to leave his wife and sleep with a hooker to get back at her.

As a friend, as much as you want to beat her husband up for hurting your friend and urge her to leave the bastard, at that moment you need to keep your opinions to yourself. It’s not about what you want. It’s about what’s best for your friend. What if later she decides to get back together with her husband and give him a second chance? You never know. How many times have you reminded your spouse that if you ever find out that he cheated on you with another woman then you would leave him and get a divorce? It’s not that simple, is it? A human heart is mysterious and complex. When someone had done something which you think is so unforgiveable, somehow you would find yourself forgiving that person. Not right then and there but slowly you will. You will if he shows remorse and willing to change. After all, doesn’t everybody deserve a second chance? I’m not saying it’s easy and some people may decide to throw in the towel and I’m not saying it’s wrong to do that. To each her/his own. What I’m trying to say is life is not always black and white. The sooner you realise it the better life will be for you.

If she asked you what she should do and you honestly don’t know what to do then just say so. Your friend is vulnerable and she is relying on you for direction at that moment but if you don’t know what to say then be quiet, rather than say something you will regret later. Tell her to be calm and tell her she needs to decide what’s her next course of action would be. You can only guide her to the right path, give her all the options available and tell her you will support her no matter what. What you cannot do is hold her hand and make her do what you think she should do. She has to decide her own fate.

Now if a friend had just lost someone very dear to her like her dad, her mom, her child or her husband the same rule applies. Don’t be saying, “I know how you feel” if you’ve never lost someone dear to you. And no, losing your cat or your dog is not the same thing, even though you loved your pet like a family member. Just offer your condolences and tell her if she ever needs someone to talk to or share feelings with then you’re there for her.

Don’t ask her to be strong all the time because sometimes she just can’t do that. She needs to feel like she can be vulnerable with you. If you can make her forget her pain even for a while then that is good enough. Pray that she will get through this.

Okay. Now as a person going through the above situations, sometimes you need to cut your friend some slack. There is a reason why you went to your friend and confided in her in the first place. It must be because you fully trust her. It’s not easy seeing a friend suffer, you know. Your heart breaks everytime you see her cry. So if your friend somehow said the wrong thing, just remember that she is also in a difficult situation because she has never felt how you felt and there is no book that can guide her into saying the “right” things. So, if your friend tells you to cut off the bastard’s ball don’t go and do it la. She’s just saying that because she’s angry that someone is hurting you. But if she says, “I know how you feel” when you clearly know she doesn’t then I give you the permission to slap her.

Some people can get through difficult situation on their own and some need friends to alleviate the pain. If you’re one of those who think can handle it on their own, then don’t go telling a friend about your problem. You’re only putting unnecessary burden/pressure on her to say the “right” things to you.

Of Ramadhan and Tok Ayah

2009-08-26T15:52:00.003+08:00

First of all I want to wish my fellow bloggers Selamat Berpuasa & Selamat Bertawarikh.

Oh wow. I cannot believe it has been a month since my last post here. Don’t worry folks, I’m still alive and well. I’ve just been so uninspired to write. Something did happen to me but I can't really blog about it as it is very personal and I'm trying to get over it. In due time, InsyaAllah...

My boss is leaving us to follow her husband to India. Her husband has received a very good offer and they’re going middle of September. I’m going to miss my boss. Seriously. She’s such a great boss. She doesn’t micro-manage and she actually trusts her staff’s capabilities in performing their jobs. I think I am still in denial and in shock that she’s leaving us. We have no idea who is replacing her and that is a scary thought.

Remember I blogged about my grandpa a few months back? How he is like after my grandma passed away? Well, a few weeks ago both his legs were swollen and he couldn’t walk. My grandpa has diabetes and we think that may be the reason for the swell. But personally I think it’s because he doesn’t walk around as much now. When my grandma was still alive she would actually force my grandpa to exercise by taking strolls around the house. Now that she’s no longer around, my grandpa would rather sleep the whole day. He’s still pining for her. I can tell because when we talk about her I can see the sadness on his face. Plus, whenever we wanted to bring him to KL (he lives in Sg Petani) he would always decline. He’d rather stay at his own house. My mom thinks the reason he doesn’t want to leave the house is because the last time he came to KL he forgot to bring my grandma’s photo. So when he woke up he felt lost and restless. So this time around whenever we want to bring him to KL we made sure that we pack my grandma’s photo and her kain batik in his bag. I’m happy to report that my grandpa is recovering well and undergoing physiotherapy at the moment.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? Or do you think things just happened randomly that sometimes it’s hard for you to comprehend the reason behind it? Would you rather know something that could break your heart thereafter or would you rather be in the dark? I know a lot of people would say knowing is better but at what cost?
Ramadhan couldn’t come at a better time. I am going through an emotional roller coaster right now and I think fasting helps clear my head so I don’t make rash decisions that I may regret later in the future.

I just hope I made the right decision and may god give me strength to endure whatever that comes my way.

If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change

2009-07-01T16:08:00.005+08:00

It’s been more than a month since I last updated my blog. I don’t know whether it is sheer laziness or I just don’t have anything to vent. Could it be that life is just peachy???? *snort* I don’t think so. My mind is all over the place. I’m just going to write down what comes to mind so bear with me. I’m just rambling.

A lot of things have happened. Some were good and some were bad.

A very good friend re-married after holding the “divorcee” title for exactly a year. So a bunch of us went on a road-trip to Malacca for his wedding. It’s nice to see his 3 year old daughter sitting so comfortably on her step-mom’s lap during the bersanding ceremony.

Two of my good friends got pregnant, a month apart!

I went to see a very good play called “The Good Body” and I am now more comfortable with my body than I ever was. Why do women go on a diet again?

Another good friend of mine is going to deliver her second baby anytime soon.

I played futsal for the very first time and our team won! I now know how to do a header. Heheh…

Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett have passed away. I’ve been listening to MJ’s songs repeatedly especially You Are Not Alone, They Don’t Really Care About Us and Man In The Mirror. He was a very talented artiste and it’s so sad to read people writing all sorts of stories about him. I say just leave the man alone for heaven sakes! He’s dead so just let it go.

I also found out that 2 of my friends are recently divorced. 1 friend got divorced because it turned out that her husband didn’t like her parents and look down on them. She was 7 months pregnant when he divorced her. The other got divorced because her husband hits her. She is 4 months pregnant.

I’m currently listening to Zee Avi’s Someone You Used To Know, The Cure’s Friday I’m In Love, Katy Perry’s Thinking of You, Butterfingers’ Mati Hidup Kembali and Simon & Garfunkel’s The Sound of Silence.

I’ve watched The Transformers Revenge of The Fallen and loved it. Looking forward to Eclipse.

So people, Sher is alive and well. Very much alive in facebook actually. Been trying to beat my friends’ scores in Typing Maniac game in fb. I’ve already beaten hubby’s scores. Hehehe…That game is very addictive laaaa….So forgive me if I haven’t been dropping by your blogs and leaving comments. Sometimes you need inspiration to write and lately there is none. Slowly ya…don’t write me off just yet :P

p/s : I still remember the tags that I have to do...I will do it, okay. Just bear with me please :))

Random Thoughts

2009-05-25T14:59:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I think being a funny and jovial person has its disadvantages. People don’t take you seriously and they tend to say hurtful things and not apologise because they think you’re okay with it. And if you tell them that what they said hurt your feelings they will say to you,” Alah tu pun nak merajuk ke, I’m just joking. Sheesh!” So you end up being called “Ms. Sensitive”.

Sometimes you want to help your siblings but you feel like they’ve taken you for granted. They don’t ask whether you can help them or not anymore but they simply assume or expect that you’re going to help them out and if you can’t then they make you feel guilty about it.

Sometimes you just want to say “NO” when people asked you for help but somehow they managed to guilt-trip you into saying “YES”. Sigh…

Sometimes you think you know a person and you entrusted all your secrets with that person. Little did you know that person is a two-timing, stinking, sneaky lil bitch. Sigh…

Sometimes it’s better to keep your opinions to yourself and not share it with the whole world because frankly, no one wants to listen to what you have to say anyway.

Sometimes when you’re feeling sad, all you need is for someone to hug you and not say anything else.

Sometimes you just wish you can eat ice-cream all day long.

Sometimes you just wish people would stop asking you whether you’re pregnant. I’m so tempted to shout at their face, “I’m not pregnant, I’m just PHAT!” Tapi nanti kang kena heart attack plak all those makciks.

Sometimes you wish Monday was never invented. In the words of Boomtown Rats, "I don't like Mondays. I want to shoot the whole day down".

Hello, my name is Sher and I'm a seafoodholic.

2009-05-19T13:51:00.011+08:00

I just realised I haven’t updated my blog for so long. I also haven’t been reading other people’s blogs. Sorry guys. I just came back from visiting my parents in law in Kuching 2 weeks ago and ever since my mom’s bibik went back to Indon life has been pretty hectic. I swear I don’t know how people can survive without maids. I’m not trying to be “mengada-ngada” here but housework is no joke man. The only time we can do the laundry is over the weekend. If I wash my clothes in the morning on a weekday then my mom has to hang the clothes and I don’t want her standing in the hot sun hanging all those clothes. It’s so hot nowadays and making her do that is just cruel.

When we had a maid, we would only wash our own dishes, well sometimes when we’re lazy we just put them in the sink. Now we not only have to do all the dishes but we have to scrub the pots and pans too. Haiyooo, very tiring lah. And when my SIL used to leave her 1 year old daughter, Cinta with me, I would only take her into my room when she’s about to go to sleep. Other than that I would hand her over to the maid and the maid would carry her around and play wit hher until she’s tired and ready to sleep. Now she’s with me every minute of every second of the day if she stays over at my mom’s house. No longer do I have the luxury of handing her over to the maid when I’m tired and needed to rest. And she’s at that age where if she sees me, she doesn’t want to be with anyone else, not even my mom or dad. She will cry and cry and since I don’t have the heart to see her like that so I would end up carrying her to my room and play with her. I want kids badly but sometimes I wonder how one takes care of their child without any domestic help. I mean you cannot do any housework until the baby takes a nap especially if they’re at that age where you have to watch them all the time! Cinta is at that age right now where if you turn your head away from her for 5 seconds and suddenly you will see her already climbing up the staircase.

Oh yeah, today is Cinta's 1st birthday and I wanna wish her Happy Birthday and that Auntie Sher loves her a lot! Ain't she a cutiepie?!

So anyway, my trip to went really well. It was a food fest actually. Hubby and I ate non-stop and I tried so many new delicacies. Some I like and some is just not my cuppa tea. Pictures below:-

This is called linut. It's basically tapioca flour cooked and eaten with sambal belacan. SILs and hubby are crazy about them but me, not so much.

The delicious laksa sarawak. I love this dish.

The famous mee kolok. A must-have if you're in Kuching.

We also had seafood somewhere somewhere out of town. The dish below is Oyster Omelette. Not my cuppa tea. It's just too eggy?

This is ambal, a type of "siput".

The yummy buttered prawns.

The jellyfish. Also errmm NOT my cuppa tea. Hehehe...

What You Need To Know About Red Raven

2009-03-26T21:48:00.003+08:00

I was tagged by Mrs. A where I was to present some facts about my hubby aka My Boo. Here goes...

1) He’s sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?

- Well, it would be either sports or music videos.

2) You’re out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?

- Hubby is not fussy. He would eat anything.

3) What’s one food he doesn’t like?

- Fish. He would eat them once in a while if he has to but he’s not a fan.

4) You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?

- Either ice lemon tea or vanilla coke.

5) Where did he go to high school?

- St Joseph I think…Hahahaha..i know this coz he mentioned it so often. I hope I got it right. Hahaha!

6) What size shoes does he wear?

- Size 8 or 9

7) If he was to collect anything, what would it be?

- Action figures. You know like Ichigo from Bleach, Optimus Prime from Transformers, Batman…he’s such a kid at heart.

8) What is his favorite type of sandwich?

- Anything with beef or chicken in it.

9) What would this person eat every day if he could?

- Lamb. Lamb. Lamb.

10) What is his favorite cereal?

- Hmmm…I’ve never really seen him eat cereals or buy any. He prefers roti canai or tosai for breakfast.

11) What would he never wear?

- Speedo or leather pants I think. Hahaha…Errmm I dont think I want him to wear those too

12) What is his favorite sports team?

- Haiyaaa…this one if I get it wrong then there’s something wrong with me. Manchester United (ala yang kalah 2 games in a row tu…hehehe…wurve you baby)

13) Who did he vote for?

- He didn’t vote the last time coz he was here in KL.

14) Who is his best friend?

- ME! ME! ME! Kan yang? Kan? Kan? :P

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn’t do?

- Merajuk, sulk and not talk to him when I’m angry at him. I can go on for 3 days not talking to him.

16. What is his heritage?

- Eh? I don’t understand this question. Like where is he from ke? He’s from Kuching and he’s a Malay.

17. What is his favourite colour?

- Blue and black I think. I’m tempted to say RED but naaahhh…hehehe

18. What is his habit?

- Reading in the toilet. In fact, he loves to read so he would read before he goes to sleep. I wish I could sleep with the lights on but since I couldn’t so he had to read in another room whenever I sleep.

19. What is he proud of?

- The fact that he moved to KL, leaving his friends and family behind to be with me. I’m proud of him for doing that too.

20. Lastly, do you think he will read this?

- Of course he will since he has a blog too.

I would like to tag Ms. B (I wanna know about your Mini B, can ah?) and my hubby. Let see if he knows his wife eh?

Green-eyed Monster anyone?

2009-03-20T10:37:00.003+08:00

L called and told me that a mutual friend of ours, K is having some problem with her husband. Her husband apparently had not “touched” her for 2 weeks now. This was not the first time K had complained to L. K had also confided in me a few weeks back that her husband never seemed to want to have sex with her. She said she tried everything to “seduce” her husband like wear sexy lingerie but her husband just ignored her and went to sleep. My friend K has been married for almost 5 years and she too has been trying to conceive. She’s frustrated because her husband is not doing his part in trying to get her pregnant. He’s been coming home late and when he gets home all he wants to do is sleep. K said there was never any problem before with their sex life.

K called L to tell her that she’s giving up on trying to conceive. L advised K to be patient and to sit down and talk about it with her husband. I have a theory but I don’t think I want to share it with K. L told me that she thinks K’s husband is getting “it” from someone else, that he’s having an affair because no man could last a week, what more 2 weeks without sex unless he’s sick and K’s husband is healthy as horse. I told L not to make any assumption because it’s a very dangerous one to make. L then went on to say that we shouldn’t trust our partner 100%. L said that she has been married for almost 7 years and still doesn’t trust her husband 100% even though her husband has never done anything to make her not trust him. She said she often checked his phone whenever he took a shower and checked his emails as she has kept all his password with her.

My husband often tells me he trusts me. That’s why he said he never asked me who had texted me whenever he hears the message tone on my phone. He said he believed me when I told him I’m going out with my girlfriends and never doubted my words. But I on the other hand told him I don’t trust him 100%. He said he knows because he knows my perangai very well. Suffice to say it has something to do with my upbringing but I won’t go into that. Whenever I hear the message tone on his phone I will ask him who it was especially if he receives them at night. I don’t care if people think I’m paranoid or I’m being a controlling freak. I know he has never given me any reason to not trust him but hey it’s better to be safe than sorry. I don’t think I’m that bad. At least I don’t check my husband’s phone, email or facebook account without his permission. Unless there is a reason for me to do so lah. Siaplah I don’t care, I would ask him for his password and if he doesn’t give it to me then I know something is up. Privacy schimacy. Hah!!!

Anyway, I would really like to know reasons why husbands don’t want to have sex with their wife, especially if the wife is ever so willing to do it. I often hear complaints from the men that usually it is their wives who refuse to have sex but what is happening to my friend is really puzzling.

Fun In The Sun

2009-03-10T20:34:00.014+08:00

This was the view from my chalet, Salang Beach Resort. It took us 6 hour journey by bus, then 3 hour boat ride to get to this place. Penat giler but it was all worth it. It has white sandy beach and water was clear as crystal you could see fish swimming in it.

While I was away in Tioman, hubby had a little project going on. He made my birthday and anniversary card. I knew my husband is a creative person but I didnt know he was this creative. Hehehehe...

All That Jazzzzzz...

2009-03-06T12:06:00.002+08:00

I am off to Tioman tonight and will be staying at Salang Beach Resort. I’ve never been to Tioman before. But I have heard pretty good reviews and I’m very excited. This time, hubby will be left at home. I am dreading the bus journey though. Seeing that it is going to be a long weekend I am guessing a lot of people will be on the road back to their hometown tonight. For sure the highway will be congested.

My SIL just told me that her due date is on 09.09.09. Cool eh?

I am reading Khaled Hosseini’s A Thousand Splendid Suns. So far I have not cried yet. I was a wreck when I read the Kite Runner. I am also reading Stephanie Meyer’s Eclipse. I’m trying so hard NOT to finish the book so soon. I don’t want my relationship with Edward Cullen to end. Yes, I am delusional that way.

Hubby promised to do something over the weekend. We shall see whether he keeps his promise.

So just to be clear, who is the MB of Perak now? We’re now holding meetings under a raintree huh? Nice.

I went to Jason Mraz’s concert 2 days ago and had an amazing time. He is such a good performer and musician. And he is so cool and likes to merepek on stage.

Lyrics from the song A Wonderful Life by Jason Mraz,

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

How true it is.

Have a good weekend guys.

Express Thyself

2009-02-23T18:22:00.003+08:00

I once wrote that blogging should be about free expression, not good impression.

However, I am not sure whether that is true anymore. Sometimes when people are given the freedom to express themselves they tend to go overboard. They don’t care what kind of impression they’re giving or message they’re sending, as long as it’s out there for the whole world to read, they’re content with it.

I admit ever since I came across PiahZadora’s blog a few months back, I’ve been a silent reader. And sometimes I find that the comments made were even more entertaining than what Piah had written. However, of late I wonder whether some of the people who commented on PiahZadora’s blog have feelings. I mean if you can joke about a person’s inability to conceive or the fact that a person has hives and in pain then you’re the kind of person that has no compassion or mercy for other people.

Now I understand why some bloggers have made their blogs "private"... Sigh…

Lost

2009-02-17T19:09:00.009+08:00

Just because I'm losing

Doesn't mean I'm lost

Doesn't mean I'll stop

Doesn't mean I'm across

Just because I'm hurting

Doesn't mean I'm hurt

Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved

No better and no worse

I just got lost!

Every river that I tried to cross

Every door I ever tried was locked

Oh and I'm just waiting til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish

In a little pond

Doesn't mean you've won

'Cause along may come

A bigger one

And you'll be lost!

Every river that you tried to cross

Every gun you ever held went off

Oh and I'm just waiting til the firing's stopped

Oh and I'm just waiting til the shine wears off

I just love Coldplay. Really, really love them. Too bad I won't be watching them perform in Singapore on the 23rd March...Sigh...Bummer...

Don't you think their lyrics are so poetic? I think they're such good performers and great songwriters. Double bummer.

Second Chances

2009-02-12T17:09:00.000+08:00

The great thing about being alive is that you have a second chance to make right whatever wrong you’ve done in the past. When a person is given a second chance, that person will try their best to succeed, be it finding love again or getting that promotion or even a better job. One tends to make the best out of it and most of the time they get past the fact that they weren’t successful the first time. However not everyone can handle being given a second chance. Some tend to screw it up even more the second time around and with these people it’s never ending. They will ask for a third or fourth chance and after a while you just feel like giving up on them because they disappoint you time and time again.

What was the saying again? Once bitten twice shy? Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me? If everyone thinks this way then no one will get second chances. Or maybe you could get a second chance, but just not with the person that had let you down.

I have a few friends who got married the second time around and they have never been happier. I also know someone who had failed in his business once but now he’s a successful entrepreneur, even more successful than before. That’s the beauty of second chances. Only after you have embraced it and make the best out of it, then you will find true happiness and be at peace with yourself.

I want to tell you about a friend of mine who has been divorced for less than 8 months. Last week he told me that he’s in love and is getting married again this year in June. As a friend of course I told him I was happy for him. I am happy that he found love again and happy that he had entrusted his heart with another person. But I am also worried for him. I don’t want him to rush into things. I don’t want him to get married because he felt that his daughter needed a mother or that because he was lonely and needed a companion. I want him to get married for all the right reasons. But then I start to think what could be the right reasons to get married. To him the right reason could be because he was lonely and needed a companion. To me it should be because he is totally and utterly in love with her and that he thinks that she is good for him and that she could take good care of his daughter and love her like her own. Part of me wants him to be careful and to take it slow and thinks that getting married too soon after his divorce is a bad move but another part of me just wants him to take a chance and be happy and not think too much, just follow his heart. Alas, I did tell him to be careful and just follow his heart. At the end of the day, it’s his life and if he is happy then who am I to rain on his parade.

So what I’m trying to say here is if you’ve been given a second chance at life or love then you have to grab it and make the best out of it. Because that could be the only chance you will get at being happy.

Just Another Ordinary Day

2009-02-10T17:43:00.004+08:00

I received an email from my friend Banana this morning. She wished me Happy Belated Birthday and asked me what I did on my birthday last Sunday.

Well, for the first time ever I did nothing special. Hubby fell ill while we were in Langkawi. He was having really high fever, headache and his body was aching all over on our first night there. We thought it was just a normal fever so I took him to Hospital Langkawi the next day. I couldn’t find a clinic believe it or not. When we got to the hospital hubby was shivering because he was so cold. We had to wait for our turn for more than an hour. When we got to see the doctor who looks like she just got out of med school, she told hubby that it was just a normal fever and gave him antibiotics and flu meds. She told him that if he doesn’t feel any better then he was to come back and see her. Right.

We went back to our chalet and hubby took his meds and went back to sleep. Even after taking the meds he still had headaches and his body was still aching but we managed to go island hopping the next day. When we came back I tried to make him eat something but he couldn’t. He said he has this bitter taste in his mouth. Even if he ate something he would throw up thereafter.

When we came back to KL he went to the clinic and did a blood test because he still had fever and headache. The doctor suspected he had dengue because his platelet and white blood cell count had gone down. To be on the safe side I took him to the hospital and he got admitted. Later in the evening the doctor confirmed that it was indeed dengue.

His platelet went down to as low as 52 before it went up again. I fed him crab soup, juice from the papaya leaves and he drank bottles and bottles of 100 plus. Whatever food that could help get his platelet up, I fed it to him. There is actually no vaccine or meds to treat dengue fever!

Then on Sunday which was on my birthday, hubby got discharged as his platelet had gone up and he said he was feeling much better. I guess that is a gift in itself but I’m not a saint. If I ever come across that stupid Aedes mosquito that bit him I would lenyek-lenyek that stupid insect sampai hancur!! I know it’s not his fault that he got sick which in turned had ruined our anniversary and my birthday. But I can’t help but feel disappointed. I know, I know. I’m a bad person for feeling this way but I’m only human. He said sorry so many times and I believed that he was sorry even though he doesn’t have to be because it’s not his fault. I mean if it had happened to me I would feel really bad too. So that’s why I don’t give him any grief about it.

When I get upset or angry I write everything down. Hence this post. It’s the only way for me to let go of all this bad feelings that I’m having. Please don’t tell me I should be grateful that he is getting better because I am grateful. I thank god that it wasn’t dengue hemorrhagic fever or chikunguya or that he didn’t have to get a blood transfusion. I don’t know who to be angry or upset at. But I am feeling it right now. Oh please God, I don’t want to be a bad wife. For some people celebrating birthdays and anniversary may seemed petty and frivolous but when you’re so looking forward to it and things don’t go as planned it is damn frustrating. I know I need to get over it fast. I am trying to.

Happy thoughts, happy thoughts. Happy Birthday Sher. May next year be better than this year and may Allah grant me his blessings and may all my wishes come true. Amin...

My Life Would Suck Without You

2009-01-29T17:53:00.004+08:00

Hubby and I will be celebrating our 2nd year wedding anniversary next week and the best part is we will be celebrating it in Langkawi. Can you believe that my husband has never been to Langkawi? He’s acting like an excited little boy going on a trip far far away.

I can’t believe we’ve been married for almost 2 years now. How time flies when you’re having fun eh? I can still remember picking him up from the airport when he first arrived from Kuching 4 years ago. He was wearing his red MU t-shirt with blue jeans and pushing his trolley outside the arrival gate. (I told myself that I would never go out with an MU supporter coz they’re SOOOOOO Over The Top!! I guessed I spoke too soon).

When I saw him the first thing that popped in my head was, “Thank god he’s tall!!” Hahahahha…Seriously, I would have just left him at the airport if he was short. Hahahaha…Gila evil!!

I asked myself what made me fall in love with this man and agreed to become his wife. It’s not like we have many things in common. Yes, essentially we love music and we love watching movies and eating out but our taste in music and food are different.

He’s a football craze person and would watch sports, any kind of sports on television non-stop. I on the other hand am not. If there’s a football match on TV I would change the channel really quickly. The only time I watch football is during the World Cup and even then I’d only watch the Brazillians play. So that’s like football once every 4 years for me. But there was this one time where I had learned the names of most of the EPL players because he asked me to join in the Football Fantasy League. He knows I am a very competitive person and the only reason why I would learn the names of the players is so that I could pick them to be in my team, win and score high points. Well, at least now I know how ugly Cisse is and that Xabi Alonso is Spanish and not black (don’t ask, long story).

He would order a different dish on the menu everytime and willing to try them out while I would stick to the same dish I had ordered the last time I came to the restaurant. If I know that dish is delicious then I won't order anything else but that.

He listens to weird music well not exactly weird but not exactly mainstream either and would annoy me by asking me to listen to the song he’s just “found” and tell him what I think of the song. He gets excited when he listens to singers like Adele, Kokokaina and those Indonesian bands. He’s into RnB and I am so NOT! I can’t stand USHER!

When we fight, he would rather talk about the fight, about feelings and why I felt angry or hurt while I would rather keep quiet, cool down, sulk for a bit then talk about it. I am not a talker. When I am upset I get to one corner and keep quiet. But hubby is a talker. He likes to analyse things so he could understand where all the anger were coming from. Sometimes he analyses things too much I think!

He can sleep with the lights and tv on while I on the other hand must sleep in total darkness and in total silence.

But somehow, with all the things that we don’t have in common we managed to find a middle ground to make it work. I’m not saying he’s the greatest husband in the world nor will I say I am the greatest wife but I think we’re doing okay together. We compliment each other in ways that only we know how to. I guess what I’m trying to say is our differences hold us together, make us whole and keep things interesting.

Happy 2nd year Anniversary Sweetie…I love that you are the last person I talk to before I go to sleep and the first person I see when I wake up…

Of Motherhood...

2009-01-21T14:27:00.002+08:00

I’m surrounded by pregnant women. Everywhere I turn there is bound to be a pregnant woman in sight. A very good friend of mine is pregnant. I just found out that one of my colleagues is pregnant as well. Don’t get me wrong. I am happy for pregnant women everywhere. I’m not being sarcastic here. I am truly happy for these people. I just wished it was me.

You guys have no idea how hard it is to get pregnant. Sex is not fun anymore. Well sometimes it's fun but most of the time it's not when you're trying to conceive. You’ll have to count the days when you’re ovulating and even when you’re not in the mood to have sex, you still have to do it because that is the right time to do it. And when your husband doesn’t ejaculate you get angry because if he doesn’t come then there is no way in hell you’re going to get pregnant. You get even stressed out when your husband tells you that you’re stressing him out by over-analysing things. But he doesn’t get it. No men will get how important it is for a woman to become a mother.

Sometimes you get frustrated because your ability to conceive depends on another person. It doesn’t make sense to think such a way because you can’t get pregnant on your own, right? But you can’t help but feel that way. You feel like such a loser because one thing you’re supposed to be good at which is motherhood and you can’t even do that.

I feel like such a loser sometimes. I feel like I’ve somehow let my parents, in-laws and husband down. People tell me not to think about it too much, don’t stress about it but how can you not think about it? The more people tell you not to think about it, the more you tend to over think it.

All I can do right now is hope and pray for a miracle.

Bull Mauled by The Bear??

2009-01-16T11:46:00.002+08:00

2 weeks into the new year and we have heard so many bad things happening in the market. Banks and companies are not hiring people at the moment and the latest one is the Satyam debacle, the largest corporate fraud ever perpetrated in India. I am just perplexed how 2 brothers managed to falsely inflate their profits and cook their books which amounted to more than $1 billion!! And this had gone on for a number of years!! How the regulators had failed to detect this is beyond me. And we’re talking about a company which is listed in the New York Stock Exchange, for heaven sakes!!!

And what about the Madoff scandal? I mean this guy was the former Chairman of the NASDAQ Stock Exchange but now it was reported that he had swindled up to $50 billion from investors. I read somewhere that when he was questioned by the FBI he allegedly told them that his business was "a giant Ponzi scheme!!!” I mean if a former Chairman of NASDAQ, a person who supposedly has a sound financial knowledge is involved in this kind of illegal activity then who can you trust????!!!

Reading about these 2 cases got me really upset. Upset because the victims would be the innocent shareholders and investors who had put their trust in the company and had put their money in the hands of the man they think they could trust. Now I understand why our forefathers used to keep their money under the pillow.

Anyway talking about money, I heard that bonus for government officers are good this year. It seems that the government has to give good bonuses so people would spend and inject money into the economy. That’s why you don’t see any empty shopping complexes or why Malaysians can still go for holidays overseas even though EVERYONE kept telling us the economy is bad, we’re going into recession and inflation rate is going to be high. Oh well…

In other news, Jason Mraz is coming to Malaysia on March 4th. I’m definitely going for his concert. A lof of my friends are going for Rihanna’s on the 19th Feb. PGL 3rd season is starting in February. Believe it or not I’ve never seen PGL at Istana Budaya because tickets are always sold out so hopefully I get to go this year. Sigh…more money down the drain…

Happy New Year Everyone!

2008-12-22T14:18:00.001+08:00

In a few more days we will be coming to the end of 2008. A lot of things had happened this year, some are exciting and nice and some are just sad and depressing.

Hubby and I have been trying very hard for a baby this year but I don’t think it’s going to happen anytime soon. Disappointed? Yes, of course I am. But it’s only been a year and I am not going to give up that easily. I have been to a doctor and InsyaAllah we will do whatever that is necessary to get pregnant. My relationship with hubby has been really good so far. We have our fights as most couple normally do, some fights were silly ones and some were pretty intense. But we made-up really fast and we talked more about our problems with each other, instead of giving each other silent treatments. Hubby is the kind of guy who wants to talk about everything. I mean if I get angry at him for some reason then he would just badger me to talk about it over and over again. If I don’t answer his call then he would call 50 times and leave countless text messages until I answer them. He sometimes doesn’t understand the concept of leaving me alone to cool off for a while and hence causing me to get even angrier with him. If I am angry then I just want to be left alone until I cool off on my own because if you’re trying to use logic with me when I’m mad then you’re wasting your breath and time.

But now I think he is getting it. He knows now how to handle me when I’m upset. Thank god.

Work wise, everything has been good, Alhamdulillah. I am surrounded by really good people. I don’t think of them as my colleagues anymore but as good friends. One of them is getting married next year and I foresee we will be having lots of fun planning her hen night. I already know what I’m going to make her do *evil laugh*

I heard we may be getting our bonus and increment tonight. I hope and pray it’s a good bonus. I don’t understand when employers say that because of the economic downturn they have to slash our bonus. I mean we worked really hard all year round despite the economic downturn so it should not affect our bonus at all since we are entitled to it, right?

As for friendships, well, I have to say this year has been a very trying year for me. Some misunderstanding had caused a rift to the friendship and friends ended up not talking to each other. We can apologise and asked for forgiveness till kingdom come and try to salvage whatever that is left of the friendship but if one party decide that the friendship is worth foregoing then there is nothing we can do. As for me, I can only give her time and hoped that in the future we will be able to talk to each other like we used to. Not everything bad had happened this year. I’ve made some wonderful friends whom I know I can count on for support and I have my wonderful existing friends who are willing to accept my shortcomings and understand where I am coming from. I can be loud and opinionated at times but I am a softie inside.

Anyway, I’ve learned that you can’t take friendship for granted. I’ve learned it the hard way. As much as I want to salvage the friendship, I have to accept the fact that you can’t make people do what they don’t want to do. When their heart is no longer in it, then there is no point to continue further.

With all that said and done, I have to say that I am looking forward to 2009.

I am looking forward to make a baby or babies (hubby said that there are twins in his family…hehehe…) with hubby.

I am looking forward to my 2nd Wedding Anniversary and my 35th Birthday in February.

I am looking forward to my next promotion. Heh…InsyaAllah. Just have to be more focus and work harder.

I want to wish everyone Merry Xmas and a very Happy New Year. I pray that next year will be a better year for all of us.

A Dedication

2008-12-15T17:39:00.004+08:00

My mom and dad read this poem during my cousin's wedding. I don't know who the author of the poem is but the words are really beautiful. I have a feeling it is written by an Indonesian poet or maybe it is a translation from an Arabic poem.

UNTUK SUAMI

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan

menyingkap tabir rahsia

Isteri yang kamu nikahi

tidaklah semulia Khadijah

tidaklah setaqwa Aisyah

pun tidak setabah Fatimah

Justeru isterimu hanyalah wanita akhir zaman

yang punya cita-cita

menjadi solehah...

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan

mengajar kita kewajiban bersama

Isteri menjadi tanah kamu langit penaungnya

Isteri ladang tanaman kamu pemagarnya

Isteri kiasan ternakan kamu gembalanya

Isteri adalah murid kamu mursyidnya

Isteri bagaikan anak kecil kamu tempat bermanjanya

Saat isteri menjadi madu kamu teguklah sepuasnya

seketika isteri menjadi racun kamulah penawar bisanya

seandainya isteri tulang yang bengkok berhatilah meluruskannya...

Pernikahan atau perkawinan

menginsafkan kita perlunya iman dan taqwa

Untuk belajar meniti sabar dan redha Allah SWT.

karena memiliki isteri yang tak sehebat mana

justeru kamu akan tersentak dari alpa

kamu bukanlah Rasulullah SAW

pun bukanlah Sayyidina Ali Karamallahhuwajhah

cuma suami akhir zaman

yang berusaha menjadi soleh... amin...

UNTUK ISTERI

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan

membuka tabir rahsia

Suami yang menikahi kamu

tidaklah semulia Muhammad SAW

tidaklah setaqwa Ibrahim

pun tidak setabah Ayyub

atau pun segagah Musa

apalagi setampan Yusuf

Justru suamimu hanyalah pria akhir zaman

yang punya cita-cita

membangun keturunan yang soleh...

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan

mengajar kita kewajiban bersama

Suami menjadi pelindung kamu penghuninya

suami adalah nahkoda kapal kamu navigatornya

suami bagaikan balita yang nakal kamu adalah penuntun kenakalannya

saat suami menjadi raja kamu nikmati anggur singgahsananya

seketika suami menjadi bisa kamulah penawar ubatnya

seandainya suami masinis yang lancang sabarlah memperingatkannya...

Pernikahan ataupun perkahwinan

mengajarkan kita perlunya iman dan taqwa

Untuk belajar meniti sabar dan redha Allah SWT
kerana memiliki suami yang tak segagah mana

justeru kamu akan tersentak dari alpa

kamu bukanlah Khadijah yang begitu sempurna di dalam menjaga

pun bukanlah Hajar yang begitu setia dalam sengsara

cuma wanita akhir zaman

yang berusaha menjadi solehah... amin...

I Did It My Waaaaaayyyyyyy!

2008-12-11T12:14:00.003+08:00

I attended my cousin’s wedding last weekend at the Putrajaya Lake Club. I have to say it is such a beautiful place to hold a reception, next to the lake and all. It was very romantic and the fact that my cousin and his bride arrived at the lake on a boat together with the flower girls and boys made it even more romantic. Sigh…ni yang terasa macam nak kahwin lagi sekali ni…hahahaha…

The bride is an Iranian and during the akad nikah ceremony I saw the gifts or “hantaran” that my cousin had given his wife, which includes 2 candlestick stands placed on the left and right hand side of a very large mirror. I didn’t know what the 2 stands and the mirror signifies but my cousin said that it was customary for Iranian men to give such gifts to their bride. I had to find out and like any normal curious person would do, I googled. Hehehe...

It turns out that the Mirror represents fate and the two candlestick stands or Candelabras represent the bride and groom and brightness in their future. The mirror and two candelabras are symbols of light and fire, two very important elements in the Zoroastrian culture. When the bride enters the room she has her veil covering her face. Once the bride sits beside the groom she removes her veil and the first thing that the groom sees in the mirror should be the reflection of his wife-to-be. However, during the akad nikah there wasn’t any veil and the groom didn’t sit opposite the mirror. So I guess the custom got modernised or something eh?

The reception in Iran is going to be held sometime next year and my mom and aunts are already excited about taking the trip to Iran. I read that for Iranians, marriage is an event which must be celebrated not quietly but with glory and distinction. It is the most conspicuous of all the occasions and is celebrated in the presence of a fairly large assembly. So you can imagine how excited my mom and aunts were of the thought of going to Iran. However, I’m sure it would be more of a shopping expedition than anything else.

Anyhow, back to the reception. The reception was very informal and small. I don’t think there were more than 200 guests. To me it was the ideal kind of wedding as it was only attended by close family members and friends. My mom and dad (being the oldest married couple there) read a very nice poem composed by an Arab poet to the newlyweds and after that the guests had requested my dad to sing for them. My dad being a karaoke enthusiast of course agreed and sang My Way by Frank Sinatra and Widuri by Broery Marantika. I know I know, not quite the right kind of songs to sing at a wedding but it was an unexpected request. Hehehe…

Thinking about my cousin’s reception last weekend and my own wedding reception last year I realised that sometimes not everyone get to have an ideal wedding reception. Receptions are usually held and dictated by the parents of the bride and groom. The bride and groom have little to say or no say at all sometimes due to the fact that they are not the ones who usually fork out money to pay for the reception. That’s why sometimes you see people having 3 receptions, one for close friends, one for family members and another one for friends of the parents.

To me it is a waste of money to have so many receptions but I guess if you have the money to spend and since it is the most important day of your life and you want to have the wedding that you’ve always dreamed of then I guess some people don’t mind spending all that money. However, some people tend to forget that the wedding reception is not the most important part of all; the most important part is the marriage itself. What happens after the reception, after all the guests had gone home and after the presents have been opened is all that matters. It is the start of your journey as husband and wife, the compromise and sacrifice that you have to make for each other. Marriage is not always a bed of roses. There will be times when you just want to kick him in the nut when he did or said something that made you angry. Sometimes you want to make love and he doesn’t and vice versa. Sometimes you want to watch Sehati Berdansa but he wants to watch football live on ESPN.

Whatever your differences are, you have to remember to communicate and talk it out with each other. If one day you wake up and suddenly realised that you have nothing to say to your partner even after he or she said or did something that hurt your feelings or you just don’t care about the fight that you just had with your partner, then that is the day when you should be worried about the marriage.

Ku Bukan Superstarrrr!

2008-12-05T23:46:00.005+08:00

You guys have to listen to this song and watch the videoclip. Seriously hilarious okay! It's by this Indonesian group called Project Pop and the song is called Bukan Superstar...

Oh before I forget, I want to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha :)

Bukan Superstar lyrics

Andai aku Pasha Ungu
semua wanita kan memburuku
Bila aku Ariel Peterpan
kau yakin ngefans karena gua keren

Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Sexy badannya.. Mulan Jameela
cantiknya dia seperti aku
Giring Nidji sahabat aku
dekat denganku.. dialah aku..

Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Andai ku Letto wis pasti aku wong jowo
Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kata orang ku mirip Glenn Fredly
suara merdu, wanita jatuh hati
Namun semua itu hanya mimpi bagimu woohoo~

Jadi… semua itu hanya mimpi?
Ya iya laah… masya ya iya dong
duren aja dibelah bukan dibedong

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kamu bukan super, kamu bukan setar
Kalo digabungin kamu bukan supersetarr..
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Hey Mr. DJ put a record on I wanna dance with my baby!

2008-12-02T17:29:00.003+08:00

Thanks to Hubby, I’ve been listening to these Indonesian songs over and over again. They’re really good!

Cinta Ini Membunuhku by d’Masiv
Tinggal Kenangan by Caramel
Terima Kasih Cinta and Sadis by Afgan

Oh yeah, that reminds me. Guys, there’s going to be a Livesounds Indie Rock Fest here in KL. Details below :-

On 5 December from 9 p.m. onwards @ Rainforest Bar, Pavilion KL, bands such as Andra & The Backbone and Lightcraft will be performing. On 19 December from 9 p.m. onwards @ Wine Room, Asian Heritage Row, Marcell and Dewi Dewi will be performing. On 27 December from 9 p.m. onwards @ Bar SaVanh Too, Plaza Mon’t Kiara, performances by Shiela On 7 and The Rock.

For more information, check out http://www.livesounds.com.my

David Cook and David Archuleta of American Idol came out with their new albums. Cook’s album is okay but not as great as Daughtry’s 1st album. Not many ballads but I still love his voice. I like Mr. Sensitive, Lie, Avalanche, Permanent and The Time of My Life. Archuleta’s album is not bad either. His cover of Robbie William’s Angel is not bad but I still prefer the Mr. William’s version. I also like To Be With You, Falling,

I’ve also been listening to Taylor Swift’s latest album. I’m not a fan of country music but I think her album is quite good. Although I think some of the songs sound quite the same after you listen to them over and over again. Strictly for teeny boppers. Oh that reminds me, I love Jonas Brothers’ Lovebug too. Hehehe…such a cute song, don’t you think? Listening to a bunch of kids singing about how lovestruck they are makes me feel so old…

Beyonce’s album called I Am…Sasha Fierce is also good. I like If I Were A Boy, Halo, Satellites, Ave Maria, Disappear and Diva. This time around she didn’t shout as much, more controlled I think. Another singer I’m crazy about is Ingrid Michaelson. Her voice is simply amazing. Her latest album is called Be Ok. I love all the songs in that album especially You and I, Lady In Spain, Keep Breathing, Oh What A Day and Giving Up.

How can I forget Britney Spears??! It’s her birthday today by the way. Britney came out with her latest album called Circus. It was so much better than her last album. She looks good too.

I have to say listening to music is how I unwind. Some people play sports, some bake but for me listening to music is the best form of therapy after a long and hard day at work.

Advice

2008-11-24T10:29:00.001+08:00

It’s been a month now since my grandmother passed away. My aunt just sent us an email. She said that my grandfather hasn’t been eating (I saw him 2 weeks ago and he has lost some weight) and has been crying most of the time. When we asked him if he’s okay he will say that he’s doing fine but deep down we know he’s not. We think he’s feeling very lonely and depress. He told my aunt that he feels like he’s burdening his children.

What should we do to make him feel better? We’re at lost. I know he needs time to mourn and be sad but how long should we let him be that way? Is there anything we can do to help him? I really need some advice here.

My grandfather is a very quiet and private man. The kind of person who keeps everything bottled up inside. It’s very hard to get him to talk about his feelings. Even when he has a problem he won’t show it. He will only talk about his problems with my late grandmother.

We really want to help him. But we don’t know what to do.

Diva is a female version of a Hustla?

2008-11-19T16:40:00.001+08:00

What is a Diva? According to one of the dictionary I found online, a Diva is a person who considers herself (or by extension himself) much more important than others, has high expectations of others and becomes angry when their standards or demands are not met.

According to Wikipedia, the term is often used with a negative connotation. This derives from the implication that a star who is a "diva" is arrogant, difficult to work with, high-maintenance, manipulative, fussy, highly strung, privileged and demanding. Professional singers and actors often use this term to describe someone who desires the stage spotlight over others.

I think I’ve had the misfortune of meeting one or two divas in my lifetime and let me just say that not one of them is a popular singer or a superstar. Hence, I am wondering why these insignificant people act like one???!!

I had encountered one such diva-like character while I was helping out with one of the performance for my company’s annual dinner to be held in 3 weeks time. I don’t know her that well but you know how sometimes some people can just get under your skin even though you don’t know them that well? You just get that vibe…that uncomfortable feeling when you’re with that person. She was very eager to perform, heck she even managed to get a solo spot! I have nothing against her eagerness, it’s just that during practice you can see that she was trying to show off, like she had so much more experience and that everyone else’s dance technique just pale in comparison to hers. I just want to go up to her and say, “Woman, chill will ya??!!!” but I’m sure I would just be wasting my time and breath. I just hope she doesn’t demand a changing room filled with white roses and lilies from top to bottom like J.Lo.

Another predicament I’m in is figuring out what to wear for this Annual Dinner. The theme is Middle Eastern and I’m just so tempted to borrow one of my mom’s “jubah” and be done with it. Kalau body cam model bolehlah pakai macam kat bawah ni tapi sayang seribu kali sayang bodyku bukan macam model…if I wear something like below it would be like sarung nangka! Hahaha! Sigh…

Where's My Money Tree?

2008-11-07T11:57:00.002+08:00

“Don't you worry there my honey

We might not have any money

But we've got our love to pay the bills”

That was some of the lyrics from the song “You and I” by Ingrid Michaelson. Hmmm…Can you survive on love alone or is it all about the money, all about the dum dum dum dum dum dum?

I posted the lyrics on my FB status and I’ve got some interesting comments. Some went “aaaaaawwwwwww…” but others have pretty strong opinions about how important money is and that you can’t live on love alone. To each his/her own I guess. Some people are fairly content earning less income in a job that they love like working for the NGOs. Some doesn’t mind slaving themselves in the office for a 5 figure salary. Is there a balance to all of this?

We are presented with choices everyday when it comes to earning or spending money.

If you were given a choice to work overseas like in Sudan or Iraq and earn a 5 figure salary but your spouse refuse to come with you, would you still go ahead and accept the job? Would you be willing to leave your spouse and kids behind? Some would say you’re being very noble to make that sacrifice for your family. But is it worth it? Are you being noble or selfish?

It’s all comes down to making the right decision for yourself. I know we can’t live on love alone. That only happens in a fairy tales. But I would like to think that I would rather live moderately and enjoy the simple things in life than working to death just to earn a 5 figure salary.

At the end of the day, you won’t be able to enjoy all that money anyway if you’re forever stressed out. Your partner will also be stressed out looking at you stressing out. You would eventually drop dead. And that ain’t fun at all.

Have a good weekend everyone!

Rest in Peace my beloved Tok Yang

2008-10-31T11:01:00.001+08:00

I lost someone very close and dear to me 4 days ago. My grandmother or Tok Yang as I fondly called her had passed away on Monday the 27th October at the age of 76. She wasn’t sick or anything like that. In fact she looked really healthy when we had our family gathering the day before. She was eating and laughing. No one would have thought that she would leave us all so suddenly like this. Even my grandfather was in a state of denial for a while. He couldn’t believe that his beloved wife had passed on before him. She and Tok Ayah had been married for 60 over years and they have 13 children of which my mother was the eldest.

My Tok Ayah looked so lost after the funeral. He was crying all the time. Sometimes he forgets that his wife had died. He would asked one of us to ask Tok Yang whether dah masuk belum waktu Zohor/Asar/Magrib/Isya’. He depended on her for everything. I don’t know how life would be like for him after this. My Tok Yang was a very strong woman. She was the one who took care of Tok Ayah, bathed him, cooked for him and was his companion.

My Tok Yang had a heart problem but we didn’t think that was the cause of her demise. On the morning of the 27th, around 2 a.m. she woke up and told my aunt that she was hungry. So my aunt fed her quaker oats. She was purging for a bit and had difficulty breathing. My aunt had telephoned my mom to ask her to come over to the house so they could take Tok Yang to the hospital but it was too late. By the time my aunt had gone into the room to ask her to get ready, she had stopped breathing. She looked so peaceful and serene.

You know how sometimes when people know they are going to die they would do or say things out of the ordinary? My Tok Yang told her children that this year was the best raya she ever had because all her children and grandchildren went back to Sg Petani to celebrate raya with her and that this year would probably be her last raya. But of course no one wants to hear things like that so they told her, “Jangan merepek la Mak” and they believed that she was going to live forever or at least for a few more years. I mean no one wants to think that their mother is going to leave them right?

My Tok Yang loved her jewelleries especially gold. Most old women do I think. But my Tok Yang told my mom that she was going to return the gold necklace that my aunt bought for her as a raya gift because she felt that she had no use for them anymore. We ignored the sign.

My Tok Yang loved her garden and her fish pond. Whenever she was supposed to come to KL for a check-up, she would remind my uncle who lives nearby to come to her house everyday to water her plants and feed her fish while she was away. She would remind my uncle a million times and would call him everyday to remind him. She would do this everytime without fail. My uncle told us that the day before she was supposed to leave for KL, she didn’t even call and ask my uncle to look after her garden. My uncle said that it was like she didn’t even care what happened to her garden while she was gone. Again, we ignored the sign.

None of us had a chance to say goodbye to Tok Yang. But one thing I know for sure is that she knew we all loved her very much. She was the glue that stuck everyone together. And now she is gone forever.

Al-Fatihah to my Tok Yang. Tok Yang, we love you and we are going to miss you so much.

Yoga Is Dangerous?

2008-10-30T15:46:00.002+08:00

Seriously???? Isn't it just a form of exercise? This was reported in The Star newspaper today. Hmmmm..what next huh?

Thursday October 30, 2008

National Fatwa Council to make a ruling on yoga

GEORGE TOWN: The National Fatwa Council will soon come out with a ruling on yoga exercise.
The Islamic Development Department’s deputy director-general (operations) Othman Mustapha said the council’s chairman, Prof Datuk Dr Abdul Shukor Husin, would make the announcement.

Othman told reporters this after opening the two-day seminar on Islamic Jurisprudence and Eternal Islamic Thinking at Universiti Sains Malaysia here yesterday.

On Tuesday, lecturer Prof Zakaria Stapa of Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia’s Islamic Studies Centre advised Muslims who have taken up yoga to stop practising it as it could deviate from their belief. – Bernama

Horatio Caine...the man we all love to hate

2008-10-17T15:34:00.008+08:00

1) Only a man like Horatio Caine could defeat a group of Mala Noche Gang Members in Brazil all by himself and then flew to Miami and arrived fresh and relaxed at the same time.

2) No one can do a one-liner better than Horatio Caine, with style too I might add.

Alexx : What I'm saying is I'm not an anthropologist. It could be a large woman or a small man.
Horatio : You know what they say "You lie down with the Devil (paused and then puts on his sunglasses), you wake up in Hell".

Suspect: Can I go now?

Horatio: Let me see how should I put this... No!

Det. Frank Tripp : It’s not looking too good Horatio.
Horatio : On the contrary (paused and then puts on his sunglasses), we are going to find her.

Det. Frank : They call it speed dating. Our victim has 15 dates.
Horatio : Well you know what the say Frank (paused and then puts on his sunglasses), speed kills.

Alexx : He died hours before this accident ever happe.
Horatio : So an accident (paused and then puts on his sunglasses), is not an accident at all.

Delko : He might be trying to get our attention.
Horatio : I don’t know (paused and then puts on his sunglasses), but he just got mine.

3) No one puts the sunglasses on better than Horatio, right on cue as well.

I cannot stand Horatio Caine because he is so perasan bagus!!!!!!!! Arrgghhhhh! Rasa macam nak take his sunglasses and then pijak-pijak and buang dalam gaung. And what's with the posing senget every single time?????

Sigh...Horatio, Horatio...what are we going to do with you?

Of Kek Lapis and Lemenet Overdose

2008-10-10T16:56:00.022+08:00

Someone told me that “sheep go to heaven and goats go to hell”. I don’t know why he suddenly blurted it out to me. I swear that line was from a song but I can’t remember what song it was. Why indeed do sheep go to heaven and goats go to hell?

Why do people get sick right after Hari Raya? Most of my family members inclusive of hubby (though I think his is more of “demam rindu” than anything else) and my colleagues and friends are having fever and flu, headache and/or cough. Too much unhealthy food you think?

I had a pleasant raya in Kuching.

I’ve never seen so many kek lapis before, in different colours and shapes. I've tasted ALL of them. Cannot resist la. When I see the nice colours and shapes of the cakes, I feel like I just have to taste them. Hehehe...Just don't ask me what they're called coz I don't know. I only know a few like Horlicks Chocolate and Ati Parek.

I also drank this bottled soda drink called “lemenet”. Don’t ask me why it’s called that. I asked hubby and he too doesn’t know. He said everyone called it lemenet since like forever.

Check out the size of the pulut panggang. Giler huge kan? This was taken at Pasar Satok.

Hubby's mom makes the best laksa sarawak. Hubby had polished off 3 big bowls of it!

Another sarawak delicacy. Acar cicah with keropok. I was jakun at first coz usually you cicah keropok with chili sauce but this one cicah with acar. Once I've tried it, I was hooked. It was really good!

Guess what they sell at the shop? Hehehehe...You'd be surprised....

So how was YOUR Hari Raya?

Of Being Together

2008-09-26T10:16:00.003+08:00

It’s just 4 more days to Hari Raya and 2 more days before I fly off to Kuching to celebrate Hari Raya with my in-laws. I won’t lie. I’m not looking forward to spend Raya away from my family but Hubby said something to me last night that made me feel a little bit better. He said that he and I are a family now and it doesn’t matter where we spend Raya, be it in Kuching or Sungai Petani, as long as we’re together, that’s all that matters. He’s right. I wouldn’t dream of spending Hari Raya away from him just to be with my family even though I love my family to death. He also told me he understands my reluctance and sadness but I should not let it consume me and stop me from having a good time while I’m there. He said I should not feel guilty if I happen to enjoy my Raya in Kuching because I will be around people who love me and are excited to show me how Sarawakians celebrate Raya. I felt so much better after hearing all that from Hubby. Thanks sweetie.

On another note, I realised I only received 4 Hari Raya cards this year. I received one from my jeweller, one from my dentist, one from my optometrist and one from my ex-uni mate. Wow! Hehehe…I guess it’s good that we’re not sending anymore raya cards because we will save more trees. I know my colleague Nina would be happy that I don’t go around sending raya cards anymore like I did the previous years because she’s such a tree lover and god knows how many trees I’ve killed over the years.

With that, I would like to wish all my wonderful fellow bloggers Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin. Kalau buat open house janganlah lupa jemput I okay :)

Please have a safe journey home to your kampong. Service your car beforehand and make sure you have enough coffee to keep you awake while driving. Or better yet, get plenty of sleep the night before your journey.

Heartbreak Hotel

2008-09-23T13:40:00.003+08:00

“If it's a broken part, replace it.

But, if it's a broken arm then brace it.

If it's a broken heart then face it.”

Jason Mraz said those words in his song “Details in the Fabric”. Well, Mr. Mraz, it’s easier said than done. You can’t replace a broken vase that is 100 years old and was passed down to you by your late great-grandmother.

Same goes with a broken heart. You can’t immediately face it. You need time to swallow all the hurt and bury yourself in it before you can even get up again. You need time to make sense of it all, of the hurt you’re feeling and asking yourself how to ever trust another human being with your heart again after this.

Some men take up to a month max to wallow in all that hurt. Usually they will stay cooped up in the house sleeping and maybe crying their eyes out silently of course, and then after a month they’re already out there partying and going out with different girls every night. And they may have forgotten all about their broken hearts. Or maybe not and they’re in denial.

Not so with women though. We take a very, very long time to heal. We go through different phases of healing to mend our hearts. The first phase is the “crying our eyes out”. It’s non-stop morning, noon and night. We only stop crying when we go to sleep, even then I’ve seen some friends sobbing in their sleep after a fight with their bf. I’m amazed at the amount of fluid women have when it comes to crying. I mean we usually don’t eat and drink during those “mourning” period but the tears that come out can fill a whole bucket a day. That’s why women usually loose weight during these periods. I lost almost 30 kilos so I know what I’m talking about. Anything can trigger it off. Sometimes even when we don’t feel like crying, we would still make ourselves cry by listening to those sad love songs. We inflict pain on ourselves to numb the pain that we’re feeling in our heart. Does that make sense to you? We can’t move to the next level until we have cried our hearts out.

The second phase is the “getting rid of all the things that remind us of the bastard”. Oh don’t take offence guys. All men are referred to as “bastards” after a break-up especially if it’s a bad break-up. Throw away all the mixed CDs the bastard has ever made for you, throw or give away all the teddy bears he has given you, tore up all the love letters and birthday and anniversary cards you’ve ever received from him and cut out the bastard’s face from all the pictures of the two of you together and then burn them. Oh don’t get me wrong, the crying still hasn’t stopped of course but all above needs to be done to accelerate the healing process.

The third phase is probably the most effective one to heal a broken heart and a phase that every woman usually goes through. It’s the “calling all your girlfriends and then bitch about the bastard while eating a tub of Baskin and Robbins” phase, even if the break-up is not 100% because of the bastard. Like who cares? It’s good to get it all out in the open. Even the way the bastard chewed his food will be discussed here and bitched about. Nothing is spared. And I mean N.O.T.H.I.N.G. From the top of his head down to his tiny foot thumb. Ahem. Oh we would still be crying our hearts out when we think about how sweet the bastard can be sometimes like cooking our favourite dish and bringing it to our office when we had to work late. The crying will stop immediately and replaced with anger when our girlfriends tell us that there is a possibility that the bastard could be cooking the dish for some other bitches and not just you.

The fourth and the final phase is getting out of bed and thinking it’s not the end of the world, that you’re better off without the bastard and there are other fish in the sea or better men with bigger foot thumb out there for you. It takes a lot of courage and strength to get to this last phase. With the help of family members or a dad who promised to shoot the bastard if he ever sees him and very close and wonderful girlfriends, one will get through this painful experience and move on.

With that experience, women will be more guarded with their feelings and tend to build a wall around them. That is usually why we take a longer time to fall in love. Some women will swear off men for good while some will make it harder for the next man who is trying to court them. In any case, I will tell these women it’s good to be guarded and careful but that is not how we should live for the rest of our lives. When the opportunity to fall in love knocks on your door you should at least peep through the hole on the door. And if you like what you see then open the door a little bit, get to know the person on the other side. After that if you still don’t think he’s the right one then simply chase him out and slam the door shut. Trust me, the door will be knocked on again. In any case, just trust your instinct and have fun. That’s all you can ever do anyway.

S.N.A.K.E. anyone?

2008-09-19T13:35:00.009+08:00

Does this look like a S.N.A.K.E to you?

I have lost the will to write

2008-09-12T13:11:00.005+08:00

I’ve lost the will to write. I think all my creative juices have been drained out. I’ve got so many stories to tell but I can’t translate them into words. It is so frustrating.

On being away for Raya

It’s the 12th day of Ramadhan and I’ve been receiving several invitations for breaking fast. However, this year I think I shall try to break fast as often as I can at home with my parents and siblings, especially during the weekend, since I won’t be spending Hari Raya with them this year. I’ve already booked our flight tickets to Kuching (Airasia tix cost me RM600 over!!) and it looks like I will be spending Hari Raya with the in-laws and not with my parents for the very first time. I’m sure I will get used to it over time but I guess the first time is always the hardest. I must make sure I stay away from all those sad Raya songs.

On fasting and breaking fast

You know how some people say they will try to loose some weight during the month of Ramadhan? Ain’t never gonna happen I tell you! Unless of course you stay away from all the buffets and pasar ramadhan then maybe you can loose about 1-2 kilos. Maximum would be 5 kilos. The trick is not to eat rice during iftar and sahur but can you actually survive without rice the whole of Ramadhan? Hmmm…I know I can’t.

Have you guys been to any of the pasar ramadhan lately? Everything is so expensive. There’s this one makcik in tmn tun who sells pulut panggang for RM1.50 a piece! Nasib baik sedap but still too expensive I think. My brother bought a piece of ayam percik in Bangsar and it costs him RM6! And it’s not even a big piece. There’s also this popiah stall near the entrance at pasar ramadhan tmn tun where you can see so many people queuing up just to buy the popiah which cost 60 sen a piece. I’ve tasted the popiah and it is nice but not really mind-blowing delicious la but somehow the queue was so long that you’d think it’s the world’s best popiah.

On Cinta

Last night my SIL came over to the house and asked me whether I mind babysitting my 3 month old niece, Cinta. I think she planed to have a romantic night out with my brother after 3 months being cooped up in the house with the baby. The good aunt that I am, I said yes. My SIL assured me that Cinta is a good baby as in she doesn’t wake up so often for feeding, she usually needs feeding at midnight then will sleep throughout the night and then wake up at 6am the next morning for her next feeding. So I thought, “Hey that’s easy peasy”. Boy was I wrong. She ended up waking upat 1am, 4am and 7am for feeding! My goodness! That girl can really drink milk. No wonder she’s so “sihat”. Now I’m in the office and so sleepy. I can hardly get my eyes open. I don’t know how some mothers do it. Especially working mothers. Wait, let me rephrase that. Especially working mothers with lazy husbands who refuse to wake up to feed the baby. Anyhow, since Cinta is such a cute bundle of joy I don’t mind babysitting her again. Even my hubby adores her.

Easy Listening

2008-08-29T15:26:00.005+08:00

Songs that you should listen to while driving to work in the morning. It will definitely make you less stressful even though you're stuck in a jam.

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

NKOTB – Summertime

Kate Nash – Merry Happy

The Ting Tings – That’s Not My Name

The Fratellis – Baby Fratelli

Pussycat Dolls – When I Grow Up

Ingrid Michaelson – The Way I Am

Sara Bareilles – Love Song

Oh yeah, you should listen to some of the songs below. I don't have the download link but if you want to listen to them just send me an email and ill forward to you the song. Sharing is caring afterall...hehehe

Pink Martini - Sympathique
Antsy Pants - Vampire
The Zutons - Don't Ever Think
Fergie - Labels or Love

If you quit, does it make you a loser?

2008-08-12T17:22:00.001+08:00

Karen: Tell me, if you were in my position, what would you do?

Harry: What position is that?

Karen: Imagine your husband bought a gold necklace and come Christmas gave it to somebody else...

Karen: Would you wait around to find out if it's just a necklace, or if it's sex and a necklace, or if worst of all it's a necklace and love? Would you stay, knowing life would always be a little bit worse? Or would you cut and run?

My friend found out her husband had slept with another woman. When asked why he did it, he answered because he was seduced, that it didn’t mean anything and that he was sorry. My friend cried till there were no more tears left. At one point she blamed God for giving her such “dugaan”. She knows it will be hard trusting him again. So she asked whether she should stay or cut and run.

In the end, she decided to stay in the marriage. After all, quitting are for losers. And she is not a quitter she says.

May God give her strength.

Of This and That...

2008-07-24T16:24:00.004+08:00

On “I Wanna Have Boobies”

Have you guys listened to the Pussycat Doll’s new single called “When I Grow Up”? I swear I heard she said, “When I grow up I wanna have BOOBIES”. But I checked the lyrics on the internet and it says “I wanna have GROUPIES”. But I saw their videoclip and when she was saying “I wanna have groupies” she was holding up her boobs. Why? Why would she do that? Hahaha…Damn confusing man. I mean like Nicole Scherzinger needs "more" boobies right?

On The Dark Knight

Oh I’ve watched The Dark Knight last week. Damn good movie. Heath Ledger was phenomenal. I never knew I could hate a villain so much like I hated The Joker. I mean Jack Nicholson as The Joker in the previous Batman movie was a complete sissy compared to Heath Ledger’s portrayal as The Joker. Ledger was disturbing and twisted at the same time. “Why so serious?” indeed! He should get an Oscar right now! Hehehe…However, I did think the movie was a bit too long and some parts were a bit draggy (I’m gonna get killed for saying this, aren’t I?). I guess it’s one of Chris Nolan’s trademarks i.e. his movies must be more than 2 hours long. Remember V for Vendetta?

Good acting by Christian Bale too. I’ve always liked his acting ever since he played the sick and twisted yuppie in The American Psycho. I still remember his famous line from the movie – “I think my mask of sanity is about to slip”. A chilling performance.

On Chick Flicks

So next week my girlfriends and I are set to watch Sex and the City. Hubby dah cakap awal-awal that he will NOT be watching the movie with me. He says it is such a chick flick, too girlie for him. Hellllloooo??!!! It’s not too girlie okay. Pffffttttbbbhhh! Some men just cannot appreciate movies without an elaborate car chase scene, buildings being blown up and people blown up to pieces.

On Hubby Being Away

Hubby is off to Penang from today until Saturday for some teambuilding thingy organised by his office. I already miss him. This morning I had no one to fight with on who should take a shower first. No bumping into him when we’re both busy getting ready in front of the mirror. No morning mail from him. Sigh. I’ll only see him on Sunday because I’m off to Sg. Petani from tomorrow until Sunday with my parents visiting my grandparents.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Of Feeling Lonely...

2008-07-10T16:41:00.002+08:00

For some people it is easier to forgive than to forget. But for some, forgetting is a lot easier than forgiving.

Would you forgive someone who said or did something to hurt you even when they didn’t ask for it, out of your own free will?

I think it is easier for me to forgive than to forget. Maybe that is because I am a lawyer and I remember every single details of my life. A curse some may say. When I broke up with my 1st ex for cheating on me (he admitted it few years later after we broke up) I thought I would never forget what he did. I still haven’t. I remembered everything he said to me, the reason he gave for breaking up with me. But slowly I forgave him even though he didn’t ask for my forgiveness until a few years later. I needed to forgive him so I could move on with my life.

Then there was this friend of mine of often said things without thinking. He often shoots off his mouth and you wouldn’t believe the things that came out from his mouth. He thinks that people would be okay with whatever he said just because he said it was a joke. I know some of you would say, “Why don’t you tell him off? Tell him that you don’t think it’s funny and that he was being rude?”

Well I wish it was that simple. You see, people like this will come back and tell you,

“Why are you so uptight? It was just a joke! Can’t you take a joke? Next time I will never joke with you coz obviously you can’t take it! You are so sensitive!”

See how they turn it around and make it look like you’re the one who is over-sensitive and doesn’t have a sense of humour? So when you are around these kinds of people it’s best to stay quiet or better yet don’t be around these kind of people. Your hati tak sakit and you’ll have a peace of mind.

I was listening to this song called “The Heart of The Matter” and I can so relate with the lyrics.

“All the people in your life who've come and gone

They let you down, you know they hurt your pride

Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on

You keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily ever after

And my heart is so shattered

But I know it's about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if, you don't love me anymore…”

On another note, I went to watch “Sepi” last night with hubby. I thought it was a good movie. But somehow “Cinta” was better. Maybe because when I watched “Cinta” I was crying like there’s no tomorrow sampai my sleeves jadik mangsa lelehan airmata and air hidung I. In “Sepi”, I love how the characters came together and how they are connected to each other. I loved Ean-Imaan-Khalil storyline. I thought Baizura Kahar’s and Tony Eusoffe’s acting were superb, although I thought Marya-Sufi storyline was a bit mengarut and corny to the max. Kasut aircond?? Seriously??

What else? Oh yeah, Afdlin was … Afdlin. The character was created for him. I don’t see anyone else playing “Adam”. He was funny yet you can feel his loneliness. I’m sure a lot of people can relate with Adam. Always being invited to weddings but don’t know when you are getting married yourself. Always putting on a tough exterior and making jokes when on the inside it hurts like hell to feel so alone. Yeah, I can relate to Adam.

Anyways, I would still recommend that you watch the movie. Bring some tissue ya. You won’t cry throughout the whole movie but you will definitely cry at some parts. Just be prepared.

Wedding Woes...The Aftermath...

2008-06-30T16:54:00.003+08:00

Remember this?

Well, her second husband turns out to be a drunk. He comes home drunk almost every night, harasses the kids in the village and blasts the music loudly during Friday prayers. I head from another aunt that the neighbours are getting really angry with the guy.

My aunt should’ve checked out the guy’s background before marrying him. I know he was the love of her life a long, long time ago but people change. Obviously he was not the same person my aunt fell in love with years ago. Sigh. I pity her kids. Her eldest son doesn’t talk to her and only calls her when he wants his allowance and we suspect that the son is on drugs.

My only concern right now is my aunt and her youngest daughter. If he ever laid his hands on either one of them when he’s drunk, I will personally cut his balls off!

Aku CINTA Sama Kamu!

2008-06-13T16:36:00.008+08:00

My husband and I are actively trying to get pregnant. I love kids so much and if I start to think that I may never have one, well it can make me feel really depress. We don't know anything yet for sure but we're seeing a doctor next month just to make sure everything is "working" and there's no problem. Maybe just a matter of "belum ada rezeki lagi"...

Anyway, my SIL just gave birth to her second child last month. I'm telling you, I pity the kid for having such a long name, thanks to my brother of course. I don't know what he was thinking! My 3 year old nephew, Hareez is not very happy with the arrival of his baby sister because he is now no longer an only child. He's so jealous of his baby sister. He refused to lend his baby clothes or his soft toys to his sister.

But I can tell that Hareez is still my brother's favourite. I mean Hareez is really close to his dad. He only sleeps with his dad and only wants his dad to bath him and change him, not his mum. He only goes to his mum when he's hungry.

WELCOME TO THE WORLD MISS MAIZATUL SABREENA CINTA!!!

To Eat Or Not To Eat...Is That The Question?

2008-06-09T18:29:00.002+08:00

If you, a muslim go to a restaurant and there’s a sign that says “No Pork Served”, would you still eat at the restaurant? Would you actually go into the restaurant and ask whether they buy halal chicken or lamb or beef?

What about if they cook a dish with alcohol? Are you one of those people who would tell themselves that alcohol evaporate while the dish is being cooked and therefore it’s not “haram” to eat that dish?

What if the restaurant has no halal sign but you see muslims eating food inside the restaurant. Would you go in and eat as well?

Hmmm…

Whooosssshhh!

2008-06-03T18:59:00.007+08:00

I received this email from one of my friends today...

Three women: one engaged, one married and one a mistress, are chatting over lunch and conversation turns to their relationships.They decided that night to surprise their men. All three would wear ablack leather bra and thong, stiletto heels and a mask over their eyes.

A few days later they meet up for lunch.

The engaged woman: The other night when my boyfriend came over hefound me with a black leather bodice, tall stilettos and a mask. He saw me and said, 'You are the woman of my dreams. I love you.' Then we made love all night long.

The mistress: Me too! The other night I met my lover at his office and I was wearing the leather outfit, heels, mask over my eyes and a raincoat.When I opened the raincoat he didn't say a word, but we had wild sex for hours.

The married woman: I sent the kids to stay at my mother's house for the night. When my husband came home I was wearing the leather bra, black stockings, stilettos and a mask over my eyes. He walked in the door, looked at me and said, 'What's for dinner, Batman?'

Seriously? I mean it's funny and all but seriously? I mean, if your wife goes through all that trouble for you, wouldn't you at least play along with it? I would love for my husband to dress up as Batman for me. Maybe I'll get that wish on my next birthday :P Haha! You think??!

So what's the most outrageous thing you've ever done?

Insane in the brain! Insane in the membrane!

2008-05-28T10:29:00.000+08:00

I don’t know what’s happening to me. Lately I get easily annoyed by remarks or statements made by friends and also my husband. Little things could set me off. There is nothing wrong with my sex life because I have been getting “it”. My workload is okay. I’m glad my boss is not the micro-manage type of person. Seriously, even if I’m stressed at work it’s not caused by my boss but more like the work itself is stressful. Reviewing rules amendments and reading stacks of documents is enough to drive a person insane.

I went to the clinic because I have been having these awful headaches. Sometimes I have to take 2 panadols, twice a day to ease the pain. The doctor checked my blood pressure and she said it’s 150/100! That’s quite high right? Now I’m freaked out. Is my headache a stressed-related one or is it caused by my food intake? I just came back from Penang with my family. So it cannot be that I’m stressed out because I just got back from a holiday!

So what do I do now? Do a full medical check-up? Watch what I eat? Go on another holiday?

Boleh Blah!

2008-05-15T17:56:00.002+08:00

I texted a friend a few days ago asking her to go out with me and our other friends and below was her reply,

“I would love to but I can’t la. You know la, lepas dah kawin ni nak pegi mana2 bukannya senang cam masa single dulu. I don’t wanna leave my hubby alone in the house la. Kesian dia. You know right? You pun dah kawin, kan? Dosa tau tinggal-tinggal suami ni. Next time okay”.

Blergh blergh blergh!!!

You think you’re the only woman who is married issit? Like hello!!!!!! Your husband will die if you leave him to go out with your friends issit? You mean you have never left him alone in the house? Before you married him, boleh plak dia duduk sorang2 kat rumah when you went out with us. Tahulah baru kawin 6 bulan! Sheesh!

Malas nak layan! So condescending her text message!

Okaylah, lepas ni I tak keluar mana2 with my friends. Jadik isteri solehah okay! Duduk rumah masak cekodok hari2 :P

p/s : I am married but I don't abandon my friends. I know my limits and I am so thankful that my husband is not the controlling kind. As long as I tell him where I'm going and with who I'm hanging out with, he's okay with it. Sigh...some people!

Mama, you're the Queen of My Heart

2008-05-12T10:46:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

TO ALL THE WONDERFUL MOTHERS OUT THERE

ESPECIALLY TO MY BELOVED MOMMY!

You taught me everything

And everything you've given me

I always keep it inside

You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything

Or anyone that I can be

And it just wouldn't feel right

If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me

When skies were grey

Whenever I was down

You were always there to comfort me

And no one else can be what you have been to me

You will always be

you always will be the girl In my life for all time

Mama, mama you know I love you

Oh you know I love you Mama

Mama you're the queen of my heart

Your love is like tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know

Lovin' you is like food to my soul

You're always down for me

Have always been around for me even when I was bad

You showed me right from my wrong

Yes you did

And you took up for me

When everyone was downin' me

You always did understand

You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times

Looking back when I was so afraid

And then you come to me

And say to me I can face anything

And no one else can do

What you have done for me

You'll always be

You will always be in my life

Never gonna go a day without you

Fills me up just thinking about you

I'd never go a day without my mama

Couch Potato

2008-04-29T14:12:00.006+08:00

Has anyone watched the show called “Are You Smarter Than a 5th Grader” on Astro’s Starworld? Don’t you think the kids are just so smart? Plus they’re so adorable especially Kyle, the one with glasses. He’s my favourite. I just wanna pinch his cheeks! Hehehe…Another favourite of mine is Alana but she can be very cocky sometimes.

Watching the show makes me wonder whether Americans are that dumb. I’m not saying all Americans are dumb (well, maybe just the ones who voted for President Bush in the last election) but the answers that they gave on the show are just so stupid sometimes. One guy even had to think for a couple of secs when asked what is 5 X 2. I mean come on!

Do you guys watch American Idol 7? Who’s your favourite Idol? I’m rooting for David Cook. He is such a talented and versatile performer. When he sang Mariah Carey’s Always be My Baby and Andrew Lloyd Webber’s Music of the Night, I had tears in my eyes and goosebumps all over my body! But I know for sure he won’t win because Americans are voting for David Archuleta right now. He is a good singer no doubt but he’s not a performer or at least not as versatile as Cook. He sings ballads really well but that’s about it. To me it doesn’t matter who wins AI because I know Cook will land himself a record deal, just like Daughtry did. I mean have you heard of Taylor Hicks since he won AI? Or even Blake Lewis? Yeah they made an album but Hicks got cut off from his record label because of poor album sales.

So I’m definitely rooting for David Cook.

Hubby and I are also hooked on Channel 703 esp. the Restaurant Makeover show and Miami Ink and LA Ink on Channel 707. The tattoo designs are really good. If Muslims could have tattoos I would definitely have one. I think la. Errrmm…it’s not that painful right? Hehehe…

Should An Ex Really Be Axed?

2008-04-22T12:16:00.002+08:00

I’m going to see Peterpan perform this Sunday. The Indonesian rock group I mean. Not to be mistaken with Peterpan the musical. Jangan gelak. A friend actually made the mistake of thinking it’s a Disney musical and we laughed at him till no end. Hehehe…

So anyway, my friend is buying the ticket. The friend who recently got divorced i.e. whom I wrote about in my previous post. He asked me whether it’s okay if he invited his ex to the concert. Say whaaaattt??? I have nothing against her. Seriously. She’s very sweet and friendly and I’ve always liked her. I still like her. But I would feel very uncomfortable if she was there. Like what do we talk about? Her work? Yeah, the same work that was the cause of the divorce in the first place, well a big part of it that is. Her daughter? The same daughter that she didn’t want custody of because she wants to concentrate on her work? Hmmm…tricky. Very tricky.

So I told my friend if he wants to invite his ex-wife, go ahead but I rather he not. Am I mean for saying that? I know I’m not a mean person and if she was there I would talk to her and all but it would really, really be uncomfortable and I may not enjoy the concert. I would rather let the dusts settle for a while. Then later if he wants to organise a singles night or whatever then invite her, by all means. They both deserve happiness, right? If not with each other, then probably with other people.

Sigh…seriously, can you ever really be friends with your ex? If it’s an ex-boyfriend, then maybe. Ex-fiancee? A small maybe. Ex-husband/wife? Hmmm…

I mean you’ve seen each other naked! Can you really be friends with your ex-spouse after that? As hard as it is to accept, I think it's difficult to bring a relationship back to its normal state after having been most intimate with someone. You will always have an image of that person naked and memories of it will always be triggered by the smell of her/his skin or perfume, or even by hearing a song that you once made passionate love to or places that you both went to celebrate anniversaries or birthdays.

Another reason why you can’t be friends with your ex is you can’t confide in each other without jealousy coming into play. Like how do you tell your ex that you can’t have coffee with her tonight because you have a hot date or ask your ex how do you tell your current squeeze to shave her armpit hair or her bushy vajayjay?

I have to say that I am in good terms with all my ex-bfs. Good terms here means I don’t contact them unless it’s to invite them to my house during Hari Raya or I would say hello and asked how they’re doing if I bumped into them at another friend’s house or at shopping complexes (meaning I wouldn’t try to avoid them by hiding behind the pillar). There is though one ex-bf whom I don’t think I’ll ever contact, not even to wish him Selamat Hari Raya because there was this one time I bumped into him and his wife at a dinner party and his wife gave me the evil look. Like jeling macam nak terkeluar bijik mata okay! In the words of Leen Ashburn, Pffffttttbbbbhhhhh! (betul ke spelling ni? Hehehe)

So anyway, back to the point of the story, am I being mean for telling my friend NOT to invite his ex-wife? Am I? Am I?

Another one bites the dust

2008-04-14T14:43:00.003+08:00

A friend called me on the phone just now. He said that he’s officially divorced. He had lafaz the talaq this morning and now feeling crappy over the whole situation. But he said it had to be done. It was amicable. Both parties wanted it. They just couldn’t make it work. There were no 3rd party. The ex wanted to focus on her career as a journalist. The ex said she still loves and cares for him as a friend. As a friend. Wow! People usually want out of a marriage if there’s a 3rd party involved or if they’re with an abusive partner. This has got to be the most amicable divorce I’ve ever heard. She didn’t want his money. He was willing to give whatever she wants.

When they were married, he told me that he gave her everything he thought she needed like a big house, a sporty new car and a fat allowance every month. However, he failed to ask her whether that was what she wanted. He assumed that when he gave her all that, she should concentrate more on the family and not her career. But he was wrong. She didn’t want all that. Some of our friends said that maybe because she was too young when he married her. When they got married, his business was doing very well. She however just graduated from university. He was already a successful businessman and he felt having a family would complete his life. I guess he didn’t realise that she was just getting started on her career.

My friend got full custody of their 2 year old daughter but he said she can visit their daughter anytime she wants. He said that he’s been the father AND mother to their daughter ever since she was born as his ex was busy with work. I’ve only listened to his side of the story though.

I wonder if my friend will ever be able to love another person whole-heartedly again. He always joked and said he’ll be out dating immediately after the divorce. I doubt it. My friend is the kind of person that when he falls in love, he falls hard. And he fell really hard for his ex.

I’ve always believe that when someone goes through a painful break up or a divorce, they loose the ability to love again, to really love again like they did the first time I mean. So when they enter a new relationship they will always be cautious because they feel that they are going to be disappointed again. Sometimes, they even "sabotaged" the new relationship without realising it. To me, it’s good to be cautious but not too cautious until you fail to embrace happiness that is staring you right in the face.

Everyone heals in their own special way. I just hope my friend knows that we’re here for him if he ever needs a shoulder to cry on. I hope he knows that falling in love and trusting another human being again will take some time. But I hope he doesn't give up on love.

After all, time heals all wounds, doesn’t it?

*tick tock tick tock tick tock*

Sunday Night Footie

2008-04-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

Hubby and I recently got our very own Astro installed in our bedroom (We live with my parents so everytime we want to watch American Idol or sports, hubby and I had to go downstairs to watch it). Most of the time we have to miss the Idol 8pm show because my dad would watch the news and sometimes by 11.30pm we would be so tired and sleepy we would somehow missed watching the show which was really sucky.

Hubby would complained that everytime he finished watching ManU game on tv with my dad he would get sore throat, have difficulty to breath and would smell really bad from the ciggie smoke (Yeah my dad smokes in the house. Even my mom couldn’t make him stop smoking in the house). It’s weird because hubby used to smoke before and one would think that he’s used to the smoke and the smell. Nonetheless, I know how he feels, which is why I don’t usually watch tv downstairs if my dad is around because I can’t really stand the ciggie smoke and smell (he smokes the Gudang Garam btw) even though my favourite tv show is on. Before we got married, hubby used to come to my house everytime the ManU game is on because at that time he didn’t have Astro at his apartment. And everytime there’s a game my dad would ask me if hubby is coming to watch the game or would ask me to call and tell hubby to come over to watch the game with him.

I think maybe that’s why my dad likes him because they have something in common to talk about besides me of course. So over the years hubby and my dad have been watching football games together and bonded I suppose. When I am upstairs I could hear both of them shouting, “Goal!!!!” everytime one of the MU players scored a goal.

So tonight MU is playing against Middlesbrough. I told hubby that my dad would loose his footie buddy and have to watch football alone now that we have Astro in the room. Then hubby did something really sweet and thoughtful. Hubby said he would watch the game with my dad downstairs even though I know he would feel “terseksa” inhaling all that smoke. Things like this makes me love him even more and the fact that he would have to suffer for 2 hours just so he could accompany my dad to watch the game, well, that’s just the kind of person he is. Thoughtful and kind.

On another note, I changed my profile picture in my Facebook yesterday. Last night I got a message from this guy which said,

“Hello, how are you? Nice profile pic by the way. You look very pretty”

To which I replied, “Thanks. You have a nice profile pic too. Is that your car?” (He had a picture of a Ferrari as his profile pic).

He replied, “Nah. Someday it will be. Too bad you’re married though J”

Hmmm…I didn’t reply to the message. I wanted to ask what he meant by that but I think I kinda know what he was insinuating. I checked his profile and it said that he was single. You see, if I was to flirt with the guy I would’ve answered,

“And if I wasn’t, what would you do?”

When you’re married there are certain things that you shouldn’t be saying to the opposite sex even though you think it’s innocent. If my husband were to tell me that a girl is pretty in front of me then I would be okay with that. But if my husband were to message a girl who is single or married that she is pretty behind my back then I would have a problem with that.

So anyway, I’m thinking of changing my profile pic. There’s a lot of weirdos out there on the internet. Tak pasal2 kena stalk plak kang. Hehehehe…

9 Naga

2008-04-02T17:42:00.003+08:00

I watched the Indonesian movie "9 Naga" with hubby last night. No matter how many times I watched it, I'll cry every single time. It was directed by that guy who made Ada Apa Dengan Cinta and Tentang Dia.

The most touching part was when Marwan's wife was reading the letter written by her husband. It was actually a goodbye letter and this is what it said,

"Istriku Ajeng... Manusia terkuat yang pernah ku kenal....

Terima kasih atas rumah terindah yang telah ku tempati....

Terima kasih untuk memberi maaf... sebelum aku meminta...

Terima kasih untuk bersabar... sampai aku tahu...

kalau hal-hal terbaik dalam hidup...

Tidak memerlukan uang...

Seperti suara mu yang selalu setia... menuntun ku... pulang ke hati mu...

rumah ku yang terindah...

Suami mu... Marwan..."

The movie was about Love. Friendship. Loyalty.

A must see movie for everyone.

You Can Only Pray

2008-03-24T15:23:00.001+08:00

If beauty is only skin-deep, then why do men always fall head over heels over gorgeous but not so smart chicks?

Men always say that they prefer intelligent, witty and independent women. But I bet deep down they would rather their girlfriend/wife be drop dead gorgeous so other men can tell them how lucky they are to bag such a prize.

Are men that shallow? I would like to think that men have evolved over the years. But have they, seriously?

Another question that needs answering is, Is it okay for married men to flirt even when they have no intention (that’s what they say la) of taking it a step further? Why do they do it in the first place? Nak test power perhaps?

Have you ever asked yourselves why your husband and/wife chose you as their significant other? Have you asked yourselves,

“Am I good enough for him/her?” or

“Can he/she love me till the day I die?” or

“Will he/she be faithful to me till the end?” or

“What will I do if he/she betrays me?”

How do you sleep at night without knowing the answers?

I guess marriage is a gamble. You can never be certain how it will turn out. It could go either way. You can only pray that the sparks will never die and that the love grows stronger each and everyday. You can only pray.

Ready To Make Nice...This Time...

2008-03-16T22:18:00.002+08:00

Forgive, sounds good

Forget, I’m not sure I could

They say time heals everything

But I’m still waiting...

Sometimes...

2008-03-13T16:02:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you don’t know how precious something is until you have lost it.

Sometimes you take for granted small little things like kissing your wife/husband good night or good morning.

Sometimes you forget to say “thank you” when someone does something nice for you.

Sometimes you forget to say “I’m sorry” when you bumped into a stranger in a shopping mall.

Sometimes you forget to visit a good friend who is sick in the hospital.

Sometimes you forget to say “congratulations” to a friend who has just given birth to her first baby or to a friend who has just been promoted.

Sometimes you forget the people who voted you into power.

Sometimes you just forget.

You forget but you expect people to remember you.

Selfish. Inconsiderate. Forgetful.

The world is full of those people.

Are you one of them?

The Garage Sale..aftermath...

2008-03-11T09:59:00.009+08:00

Remember the Garage Sale? We sold off most of the household items and clothes. But we didn't manage to sell the strollers and my collection of cassettes. Damn! Don't people listen to cassettes anymore? :P

So if anyone is interested to buy them cassettes from me PLEASE let me know. Collector's Item okay. Overall we made quite a bit money. I'm just glad I got rid of some of the junk that has been collecting dust under my bed. I still didn't have the heart to get rid of all of my romance novels. Sentimental value I guess. I enjoy reading Judith McNaught's novels over and over again. I'm a sucker for happy endings.

I think when you want to organise a garage sale you have to remember what is your objective of having the sale. Is it to make money or to get rid of the clutter/junk that you have accumulated over the years? What about people who go to the sale? Are they looking for items on bargains or are they in fact accumulating more junk? Our junk to be precise. In any case, I'm just glad there are people who are bargain hunters and look forward to these kinda sale. In fact there's even a website promoting these type of sales.

p/s : Sorry didnt get a chance to update my blog earlier. I just got back from Sydney. Attended a conference there for a week. Will post pics in here later.

Garage Sale...come one, come all!!

2008-02-27T15:00:00.005+08:00

Guys, my friends and I are having a Garage Sale this weekend. There's so many stuff that we're selling off so if you've got time or you're a bargain babe/dude or maybe you just happen to be in the neighbourhood, please drop by ya. You wont be disappointed :) EVERYTHING MUST GO!!!!!!!!!!!

Date : 1 March 2008 (SATURDAY)

Time : 9 a.m. to 5 p.m.

Venue : Block Putra, Kojaya Condo, Ampang Jaya